I did see the Pixies September 10, 2010! :-)
It was awesome!!
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About a year ago, I had planned to see the Pixies in Washington, DC but was unable to get tickets. I actually did get tickets - front-row-center-seats, but Ticketmaster freaked out and lost them. I did see the Pixies September 10, 2010! :-) It was awesome!! |
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My analyst told me that I was right out of my head The way he described it, he said I'd be better dead than live I didn't listen to his jive I knew all along he was all wrong And I knew that he thought I was crazy but I'm not Oh no! My analyst told me that I was right out of my head He said I'd need treatment but I'm not that easily led He said I was the type that was most inclined When out of his sight to be out of my mind And he thought I was nuts, no more ifs or ands or buts Oh no! They say as a child I appeared a little bit wild With all my crazy ideas But I knew what was happenin', I knew I was a genius What's so strange when you know that you're a wizard at three? I knew that this was meant to be Well I heard little children were supposed to sleep tight That's why I drank a fifth of vodka one night My parents got frantic, didn't know what to do But I saw some crazy scenes before I came to Now do you think I was crazy? I may have been only three but I was swingin' They all laughed at angry young men They all laughed at Edison and also at Einstein So why should I feel sorry if they just couldn't understand The litany and the logic that went on in my head? I had a brain, it was insane Oh they used to laugh at me When I refused to ride on all those double decker buses All because there was no driver on the top My analyst told me that I was right out of my head The way he described it, he said I'd be better dead than live I didn't listen to his jive I knew all along he was all wrong And I knew that he thought I was crazy but I'm not Oh no! My analyst told me that I was right out of my head But I said "Dear doctor, I think that it's you instead 'Cause I have got a thing that's unique and new It proves that I'll have the last laugh on you 'Cause instead of one head... I got two And you know two heads are better than one" |
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Nov 30, 2009!!! I'm going to see the Pixies in Washington, D. C. I have already planned out the air/hotel :-D I just have to buy the tickets Sept 11!! |
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"You will be successful through innovation and determination." That was my fortune for today. I have been innovative in making money (back) today. I should receive a refund of about 140 dollars in the next seven days. 
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i know it's been over a year since i last wrote. so it would seem i am already gone..and in lots of ways i am. i really enjoy looking back on my entries of who i used to be from time to time...and other times, my own writing and pain disgusts me. it's strange...yet feels so normal. i've moved on in so many ways so even though i love this place for giving me a secret place to voice all my thoughts, my pain, and my secrets...i think i may be ready to start writing again. for the sake of people i know reading what i write. a place where my picture shows up as well as my first name and they know exactly who is writing that entry. for me, that place cannot be this place. this place holds my many secrets from my past...and through this place i met many ppl, who most likely...like me have moved on. so i am moving on and getting a new blog finally, one i will share with others...but this one will always hold my past, my anger, my hurt, and my pain...i will forever miss this place...but i will be back, time and time again...to look back on my past and who i used to be. thank you for being there in a time of my life when i needed it...and for saving this part of who i used to be...i look forward for the first time in my life, to what the future may bring for me..
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Much time has passed, and many things have happened since I last wrote in my blog. I have a different position where I work. I think I'll like it so much better than my other. My old boss was..well...I had to get away from her. She's not "boss" material and was just given the job. They're regretting it now! haha |
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It's been far too long Mar 25th, 2009 1:02:45 am - Subscribe
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I haven't been around much sorry guys. Well tonight I am supposed to be sleeping I told myself I would get to bed at a reasonable hour but I can't sleep. I have to be up in four hours, I have a funeral to go to tomorrow morning and I have to be at church for eight. I don't really know the guy who died it was my mom's good friend from high school but I know his parents pretty well because they were friends with my grandparents and my grandparents practically raised me. Aside from the funeral I have a job interview, and I hope I get this job, I need it so badly! So please keep your fingers crossed I know I am. I really should try to sleep. I will update more I promise! XO |
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two thousand nine... Jan 1st, 2009 11:49:28 am - Subscribe
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| couldn't have come fast enough. Happy New Year everyone! |
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Christmas Eve. Dec 24th, 2008 9:47:32 am - Subscribe
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Yay it's Christmas Eve, I feel like this year went by 100 times faster than it normally does. Christmas kinda snuck up on me this year I wasn't prepared at all! I started my shopping yesterday. I really feel like Christmas has become to commercial. When my friends and I were at the mall everyone was in a bad mood! Nobody has Christmas spirit anymore. My whole family decided that next year we're not doing Christmas. We are going to Mexico and go on vacation instead on exchanging gifts which is perfectly okay with me, I hate Christmas shopping. Well anyways everyone have a good Christmas Eve and if I don't post tomorrow, Merry Christmas! |
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Lalalalala Dec 19th, 2008 11:15:06 am - Subscribe
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I just downloaded Google Chrome and it's awesome. I love it. I had Safari originally but Chrome is totally fast and better Hm it's supposed to snow like crazy today We're expecting up to one foot of snow ): Not really super excited. I love the snow but why does it have to be on Friday?! Oh well my friends and I are all planning to have a blizzard party. We're gonnah go to someones house and get snowed in and have a good time. Hope all is well and I hope no one got snowed in too bad. |
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Another year almost gone. Dec 16th, 2008 8:44:09 pm - Subscribe
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2008 hands down worst year ever. For me at least. The end of this year is a million times better than the rest has been, but it's still a bad year. My resolution for next year is to get a grip and start being more productive with my life. No more acting like everything will come to me. Because I know it won't, I am just too scared to try at anything and fail. My sweet is still amazing <3 and I am happy. I can't wait for the Christmas and New Years Eve. I can't wait for 2009 with my new beau my friends and my finally happy family. |
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Over two years ago... Dec 6th, 2008 9:14:55 am - Subscribe
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It has almost been two years since I have written in here. Amazing how much has changed. I doubt there is hardly anyone left that remembers me. In the past two years I have found freedom (if that exists) from my eating disorder. Am a lot more happy and content with life. I also moved out of my house (twice), first to go a treatment type center and secondly to move out for good into an apartment. I have gotten back into church. Been dumped by two boyfriends. Made a bunch of amazing friends and then lost them all. I suppose that is why I am writing in here now. I am so incredibly lonely. My heart longs for human interaction. I want to be accepted and liked and loved for who I am. I want people to leave comments on my facebook and e-mail me! I want people to call me. I want to matter. I want... to be noticed. Right now I am fighting not to run back to what was my coping mechanism for six years. I know why I want to do it but that doesn't help. I want to do it because I am stressed about finals next week, I am lonely, I am depressed, and I am angry but I don't know what to do about it except run and eat everything I can and then vomit into the toilet for an hour. I am feeling out of control. I am feeling rejected. I am feeling like the life I have serves no purpose at all. I could easily be replaced. I have not had these feelings for over a year, and yet here they all come- rushing back in. Will I ever truly be over this? Am I just going to use my whole life fighting with food and my emotions? I want to a be a photographer but so what- there are thousands of amazing photographers. Maybe I am just having a depressed week. perfect~ |
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The sweetest of dreams. Dec 4th, 2008 3:54:28 am - Subscribe
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I have the most perfect boyfriend. I must be dreaming. |
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IIIIIII Nov 28th, 2008 10:42:20 am - Subscribe
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met a boy recently. This is a breath of fresh air to me. He's so sweet, his eyes twinkle when he smiles and he's always smiling. He knows how to make me laugh, and I'm not scared of him. He looks at me like I am the only person in the whole world. When he kisses me it's soft and slow and everything a young girl dreamed of in her prince charming. He doesn't expect anything of me he just accepts me. In the morning now when I wake up I take an extra five minutes in the mirror if I know I am going to see him. The minutes when I am not with him feel like hours and when we're together it feels like the night just began. He's not afraid to kiss me or hold my hand in front of his friends. And I'm not afraid to let everyone know I'm with him. I'm smitten to say the least and I can't wait to see him tonight. |
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Lalalala Nov 15th, 2008 10:30:55 am - Subscribe
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| I hate sinus colds and waiting for the first snow fall. |
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I assumed Oct 17th, 2008 5:34:45 pm - Subscribe
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I was pretty much over the fact that love sucks, but I've realized I hate seeing and hearing about how happy other people are with their loves. I am so sick of crying. Well never assume because like they say when you assume you make an ass out of you and me. |
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U Turn. Oct 16th, 2008 4:15:04 pm - Subscribe
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I've come to realize I don't need anyone to make me happy. It's a long road that I have to venture ahead of me but since I've started showering and going out in public again I feel a lot better about myself. In fact I finally landed a sweet full time job, I got a gym membership, I am going to buy a new car, moving into a new apartment and I have started going out with my friends again. This is a new and different Mandy. |
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So... I used to blog on here all the time... a long time ago. Some of you may remember me. I was pretty depressing... complaining a lot and such. Telling disgusting and dirty secrets... I got rid of all my blogs because I'm over that part of my life. Anyway, I did blog about how I was going to publish a book one day. Well, I'm doing it. A publishing company accepted me. The book's going to be out in ebook, audiobook, paperback, and maybe hardcover by next summer. I'm psyched. But... I knew it would happen. If you want something THAT bad... eventually it'll happen. Things have been going so well for me. I'm just radiating light and love and joy. Read The Power of Now. It helped me A LOT... with life in general. It'll help you too... even if you "don't need help..." That's all. Just randomly felt like coming back here. Every once and a while it is nice to return to the past.  <3 |
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Update Sep 27th, 2008 12:05:56 pm - Subscribe
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| I have found much comfort in the arms of friends recently. |
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Last Monday I had two biopsies performed - one on my face and one on my back. The results came back today when I had the one, cute, little stitch removed from my face  The face biopsy was normal. The back biopsy was in the medium range for abnormalities. They did another *small* surgery today on my back. Now I have a sideways eye-shaped, stitched-up cut on my back. Argh!! I have to deal with stitches again now :-/ I will get my results back next week and have my stitches removed in two weeks. I'm not worried, it's just a bit of a nuissance because it's in the upper middle of my back where I cannot reach without much trouble. I may have to recruit someone to change my bandage for me. haha My back is itching...an unscratchable itch lol |