i had this thought the other day well, the other week, do you think i could jump off the roof, and manage to land and not hurt? myself its only first floor!

then I had this other thought, if i stood in the middle of the road, and a car was coming at me, and i jumped the second before it hit me, and managed to roll.....do you think that I would get hurt? i mean calculating speed and when i jumped.....its possible isnt it?

im not self destructive....but its a thought! well i have been self destructive, but its all stuff that im trying to put in the past....trying. i cant even tell you how lose i came to smoking today. even tho i promised myself and others that i wouldnt. well i spose im living for me now anyway.....*slaps self* shut up.

oh and btw...IM SOOOOOO EXCITED!!!! i am going to the great, the awesome, the A&P show tomorrow im still awesomely that i got out of my date for it tho...that was a nightmare......but now im stuck with my sister and her boyfriend....which will suck.

he has my cell phone number now...which i dont like......he is my sisters boyfriend....and i have no one to talk to about that. sad. oh well. i will just post the lyricws of this song (im learning to sing it for a gig )

No, I cant forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess thats just the way this story goes,
You always smile....
But in you eyes your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

No I cant forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now its only fair that I should let you know
What you should know

I cant live
If living is without you
I cant live
I cant give anymore
Cant live
If living is without you
cant give,
I cant give anymore

Well, I cant forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess thats just the way this story goes,
You always smile
But in you eyes your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

cant live
If living is without you
I cant live
I cant give anymore
Cant live
If living is without you
I cant live,
I cant give anymore

Ohhhhhh(No cant live)
No no no (No I cant live)
I cant live (No cant live)
If living is without (No I cant live)
I cant live (No cant live)
I cant give anymore (No I cant live)