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ahhhhh! im finally home! work was soooo horrible! i can't stand jana!!! ok, i work at a restraunt. and sundays are usually really slow, i can handle plate setup and dishes by myself and still get done early. well tonight i did plate setup and jana did dishes and esther cooked, right? sundays are slow... and jana had bus tubs on the floor full of dishes and the entire back sinks chuck full of dishes!! and what is jana doin... she's standing there eating whatever she can get her hands on! no lie, she's 250+ and eats anything that comes her way. i mean come on, its pretty disgusting when she eats some of the stuff off the plates that comes in!!! nasty!! at the end of the night its my job to dump leftover dinner rolls and put the soup away... and she asks me to save her some. how much can one person eat!?! grrr... so instead of getting home at 8:30 tonight like any other normal sunday... its 9:45! k im done now. onto a lighter subject... im hopefully gonna get my hair dyed!! bri said she'd do it for me. instead of blonde, i may become a brunette or have strawberry blonde/reddish hair. im so excited... i really hope it turns out good. well... adam is cheering me up... all is good. i just never wanna work with her again! |
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You think my being a boy magnet wouldn't be a problem. It's a "problem" every girl wants to have. Or so i've been told. in middle school, two guys asked me out, but i never went out with either of them. there's not much you can do as a middle schooler. but still, the fact that they liked me made me feel good. that feeling only lasted for a few months tho. when the guys realized that i wasn't interested in dating then, they totally ignored me. no one liked me, well boys anyway. i had lots of friends that were girls of course. for the longest time, tho, no boy ever found me attractive, flirted with me, or even talked to me. the only time we ever exchanged words were on homework assignments because i was one of the 'smart ones'. sometimes i would even let them copy some assignments in hopes of them liking me. how lame, huh? after two years of that, one guy took notice of me. at the first chance, i jumped at it. we went to the homecoming dance my freshman year single, and left boyfriend and girlfriend. amazing how quickly things happened. i loved all the attention and held onto him for the longest time until i finally realized he was way wrong for me. after five months i finally dumped him. after other trials and heartache with him once more and with another guy, i find myself here. single and very happy. im very content with my singleness and plan on stayin that way for a while. just spend some time fallin in love with God and becoming the datable person He wants me to be. but now that ive made myself unavailable, its like, the guys can't get enough of me. and half of them don't even know that i am undatable at the moment! there's the whole mike thing you can read about in a previous entry... but i don't know whats up with him. but at school, joe.... he has a girlfriend from a nearby town, but he flirts with me constantly. it seems that way to me anyway. maybe it's just his personality. i've known him all my life and he never used to act like this. today for instance, he went to write something on my hand "Joe is studdly.." go figure, that's just his silliness. but the point is... he held onto my hand and took his time, like he was enjoying it. i don't know... it was strange. and then there is ryan. he's an awesome guy! one of the few guys at my school who isn't afraid to be himself... who isn't afraid to be different. and i respect him totally for that. but he's been acting overly friendly too. like, he'll wait for me by my locker for every class (we have every class together except 2) and he does the whole tap opposite shoulder and make me look (which i fall for every time... blondeness). and every once in a while i'll hear him and my bf jen whisperin to each other and my name will come up.. and by the way jen talks... i think he told her that he likes me. i don't want all these guys to like me right now! bcuz its hard for guys to flirt with me and me not flirt back. i don't want guys right now! as crazy as that sounds... its true. anyway about the rest of my day...i went skiing in phy ed with ryan today and we watched as the 'jock guys' went down killer hill, which isn't really a hill, more of a drop off a cliff, bout 30 feet straight down. it was so hilarious... they had to prove to each other they could do it, but every time they would up lyin in the snow for about 10 mins before they felt well enough to stand up. sometimes i wasn't sure if they were really hurt or just a lil hurt. luke went into the barbed wire and derek ran into a tree.. but they couldn't get enough of it, they just kept going down it! it was fun watching, tho i think i heard more swearing and perverted language in that 44 minutes than in an entire rated r movie! i practiced again with Ian. things are starting to look up.... it went a lot better today. things just clicked and the music was great. im trying to decide which elective classes i want to take next year also... i plan on dropping band, so i'll be able to take another... so many classes, so lil time! |