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chellie What a day! - Subscribe
Today was really... interesting. i got attacked by a deer!! yes, a deer.. i was skiing with my friend jill and there is this tame deer that roams about the town. it has an orange collar type thing. well i stopped to pet it and have a conversation with it and it was very friendly. would not answer to mr. deer. when i called it mr. deer it ignored me. but low and behold when i called it ms. deer it followed me about. so, it followed us back to school. and at one point it fell behind.. and wanted to catch up with us. so it started running full blast and jumped on my friend jill's back. not really attacking... just bein playful. but it still freaked her out! after i settled the deer down it followed us a bit more to this hill we had to climb up this hill. jill went first and i second. halfway up the hill the deer runs in front of me and won't let me the rest of the way up!! if u have never tried climbing a hill in cross country skiis you won't understand how difficult it is. so here i am stuck in the middle of the hill... 10 mins later, i finally make it up.. she then followed us right up to the door and tried coming inside.

there's my story of the day...

i have decided that boys will forever confuzzle me!! i recently met a guy named mike and i kinda started to like him. we hung out for a weekend in green bay at a youth coference and the way he acted.. i just thought he liked me back. we flirted a bit, and on the last day on the way home, i found out he had a girlfriend!!! since i hadn't really fallen for him...it was easy to get over him... but i don't understand why he flirted with me. i mean, i figured he'd be faithful to her!! so then like a week later... as a friend i asked him and a bunch of others from my youth group over for a movie night. and then he flirted with me even more! grrr.. well the movie night never worked, but tonight he came to our school for a basketball game. and he played, and he kept glancin at me from across the gym and even while he played. a few times durin freethrow shots especially. UGH! i don't understand. i don't want him to like me! i dont want him to be unfaithful because of me! and i wonder about talking to him about it... but i don't want him to freak out about it. i don't want to lose him as a friend. he's a good guy. well i won't see him until next wednesday, so i have some time to think about it.
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Mood: clueless

chellie So much work, so little time... Jan 29th, 2005 12:24:01 pm - Subscribe
man today is gonna be quite the day. i don't even know why i am on the internet!!! i have so much stuff to do. i got in from the barn just a little while ago bcuz stuff just wasn't going well. the silo is messed up, not sure what's wrong, and its cold, and im just being whiny. but thats farm life i guess. fortunately in two years i won't know what that is as i will be off at college! can't wait!

i have to clean the house today! ugh... so not looking forward to that. ian is coming over tomorrow so we can practice our piano duet for solos and ensembles. i hope that goes well. i have my part down pretty good, though i haven't practiced it as much as i should. i hope he makes it to my house too! he's never been here before so i hope he can follow directions well!

i'm stuck home alone with my very crabby sister. i have no other words to describe her. she has middle child syndrome, but she's not the middle child! enough about her.

i have to get 15 minutes of music ready for playin before church tomorrow as people walk in and sit down. i procrastinated once again and waited until today to get it together. Fifteen minutes may not seem like a lot of music, but i'm very picky. plus i have to play during the service and during offering. i luv piano, so i should stop complaining about it. i should just stop procrastinating!!

and then i have to go to work. happy.gif i love my job. i get to cook tonight i think! yes! its a saturday so we should be busy... just how i like it. when it's slow, the night takes forever. a reservation of 20 even sounds nice right now.

man it's already noon, i would love to keep writing but i really need to get this stuff done. sad.gif

i also need to put more of an effort towards spending time with God. my thoughts have been so focused on dreaming and imagining the future that i've lost sight of Him. i think today, everything i do will be done with a joyful attitude and all for His glory. i will try to keep that attitude!!!

i kinda wish adam were on so i could talk to him, but i know that i would wind up staying on longer than i should, so it's probably best that he's not on!
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Mood: overwhelmed

chellie Mistake Jan 29th, 2005 4:00:00 pm - Subscribe
Wow, i am really ashamed of myself. The whole mike thing that is. i totally set myself up for this one. and i can't believe it took me this long to realize what i did! i knew he was coming to my school yesterday for the game. so subconsciously, i did want him to notice me. i don't even know why i wanted him to notice me, i just did. maybe because at one time i did like him, and because he flirts with me. anyways, i wore a halter top and this tight white sweater yesterday. stupid stupid stupid!!! i can't believe i put blame on him for glancing my way! i brought it upon myself. kk, i need to not do that again!
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Mood: ashamed

chellie Back at the table Jan 30th, 2005 1:24:37 pm - Subscribe
Today was awesome. All the work put into picking out music, practicing on my own time, practicing with the worship team, running off copies... its all paid off. The service this morning was awesome!!! Not to mention the best part yet: communion. the way our church works is, every time there are 5 sundays in a month, we have communion on the fifth sunday. the last time we had communion i believe, was in october. and i remember that i broke down in tears because i could not partake. Paul warns us that we should not partake if there is something on our hearts, something keeping us from our relationship with Christ. we should first go, and take care of the problem, and then come back and share the next time around. well, the reason had to pass the elements was because i was in a really bad relationship. steve was a really horrible influence on me. and i spent my days dreaming of him rather than focusing on God. i was a total sunday/wednesday christian. and i went home that sunday and broke up with him. since then, life has gotten soooo much better! and today was the fifth sunday in january, and i was able to partake with my family again... i sat there in church and just felt.... like i had come back from a vacation. it was so nice. i couldn't stop smiling.

mmm... i'll prolly be back to write more, but ian will be here really soon....
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Mood: encouraged
Music:: presence, newsboys

chellie Music Jan 30th, 2005 2:45:45 pm - Subscribe
well, ian left a bit ago. have we got our work cut out for us! we basically just trudged through our piano duet and came upon tough spots and went over them a bit. he's really nice, i've never really talked to him before. he's got a good sense of humor. lol. we only have 13 days until solo and ensemble, so its in high gear now! im actually more worried about my solo. its got a lot of hard spots thatn i haven't even started working on in depth. hmmm... they are both class A pieces, so i hope that the duet goes to state. that would be awesome. i'd rather not go to state with the solo. hopefully the same thing won't happen as did last year. i had to play this piece i really didn't like. i even messed up once or twice on purpose in hopes of not getting a *1 on it. but no, the judge thought i had a good feel for the piece and could work out the tough spots and she sent me on to state. i don't want to play the solo! i don't like the melody at all. its so.... uneven. the duet is really cute tho.

it is so nice to have my family out of the house right now. its so quiet, and i can think clearly... they're all out sledding at mount moldy, well except my mom, but she's in the other room. i have my puter, my music, now all im missing to be totally relaxed is a candle. my kitty is even here purring, thats relaxing too.
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Mood: relaxed
Music:: forever and for always, shania twain