Unf
Date: Aug 15th, 2009 11:37:14 pm - Subscribe
Mood: worn
Hector posted a comment on one of my deviations recently:
It's like what I say
"Lonelyness: They didn't forget about your existance, it's just that they never cared about it"
I wish I'd stop dreaming about my college "friends", leaving me behind as they always did. It's getting real old now, and tbh I'd rather just not dream at all.
I don't remember much except towards the end, we were all in some rpg thing, but somehow I'd ended up without any weapons or means to defend myself so I was just taggng along so I wouldn't be killed really. Anyways, something happened and we were all running away, and of course I tripped. Oliver came back to pick me up and helped me along a little ways but then when everyone else was laughing and stuff he just left me and joined them, and I fell over again and just ended up laid on the pavement watching their backs as they walked off (by this time we'd stopped running).
I need to get over the fact that they weren't ever really friends with me, they only talked to me out of necessity for the performance exam. I can't understand why I'm still upset over it, it's stupid, it really is, but I thought I'd at least made some friends while I was there, I guess I was just telling myself that so things wouldn't seem as bad.
I just wanna get back to school already and maybe I can get over it.
On another note, once I get up and dressed I'm gonna be doing everything I can to get outta ths bad mood, I'm not gonna let a dream ruin my day >=T
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