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Cry Bitter Tears of Failure - Subscribe
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Honour Roll is dancing just out of my reach doesn't look like "Lauren Baker" is going to be called before "Eul Basa" anymore and I hate myself for it if I don't get on it, I really don't know what I'm gonna do, but it won't be anything good I think so Postalion. Briantehlion do you really have to think lauren //Voodoo Child//Besame Mucho why wouldnt I? Postalion. Briantehlion i believe you should know Whatever that means |
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| Tomorrow's my last and final exam. Religion. Should be a breeze I guess, nothing much needed there but common sense. Anywho, it actually saddens me that tomorrow's the last day of my sophomore year. Seriously, I'll live all the downs from this year again if I could... just so I could go through the ups... If you get what I mean. So much to keep, yet so much to lose. At the start of the year, I promised to enjoy myself this year so that I'd have no regrets. And coming to the end, I guess I could say I did a fair job. Not an excellent one, mind you, but fair. If only I had more chances; opportunities to build on things and make things better. I really don't know how to take this; should I say that it's officially the end, no more chances? Or does summer have things in store for me? I hope it's the latter. I seriously do. I guess it's that single thing that's making me unhappy. I should be the happiest person in the world right now, but that one... no, maybe two things are holding me back from that fulfillment. Just... don't forget, alright? |
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Make Me Smile May 23rd, 2008 12:41:16 am - Subscribe
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I'm losin' everything, feels like the sun's going down on me I've lost everyone that I valued Do they care? No Everyone that I knew from before have suddenly vanished from my life. Certain people from now have removed themselves, and don't give a shit. You win. You get everything that I want, or rather, wanted. You get both of them, have a good life. I'm glad that you want to be an actor, you're very good at pretending you're something, like, say, a friend, that you really, truly aren't. Thanks for the memories, they honestly weren't that great. Second best just didn't cut it then, and back-burner just doesn't cut it now. Have a good life, asshole. As for the here and now, the decents, thanks guys. Tell me you will stay, make me smile |
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Sitting, Waiting, Whishing May 13th, 2008 2:14:47 am - Subscribe
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Interesting few days in the life of Lauren. Many things have happened, both good and bad. Thursday- I definately got my job, which made me thrilled. Orthodontist appointment in the morning was both the best and worse Ive ever been to. Mark it on your calendars people, you heard correctly. June 3rd is in fact the day that get my braces off. On the other hand, they took a mould of my teeth, it made me want to throw up and cry, gross. Luckily, I did neither. Friday- Weird day. I was honestly so upset in the morning, I thought he was really mad at me, and his actions did nothing to convince me otherwise until afterschool. I couldnt think of any REASONABLE answer, I did have a few theories, none of which were confirmed, and it's too late to ask now. Saturday- Wonderland tingz with Jenna, Dillon, Matthew, Chris and Michael. Due to Chris and Michael, Jenna Dillon and myself were stuck in a cold bus station for an hour and a half, not fun, but Matthews threats against Chris were pretty funny. "Im going to rape your sister" and "Im gonna burn down your mother fucking house" as well as "Get the hell outta my way, Im kicking his brown ass down the fucking escalator" were my favourites. Wild Beast was the funniest, probably because of "HEY, ITS ALLADDIN AND AFRICA" and "OH MY GOSH, JENNA LOOK, HES THE ONLY BLACK GUY ON THE TRAIN!" We ended up ditching them, and met some of the biggest assholes in line for Top Gun (the story is much more impressive in person, I'll tell you guys on the bus tomorrow). They left the park to go to Wendys for lunch, and that was the last we saw of them. Jenna and I then met up with her friend Brodie by chance whilst waiting for the bus to go home. Turns out I have the worlds smallest hands. The top of my fingers BARELY reached the middle crease on his fingers, how pathetic. Sunday- Mother's Day tingz, not much else happened Monday- Another odd day. Math was easy stuff today, as was careers. I swear I can chamr my way out of ANYTHING with that woman, literally anything, its fantastic.Music wasn't that bad today, nor was gym, or band afterschool. I do realize, however, that I owe Alex an explanation. I can't tell him that I think someone's the scum of the earth then not tell him why. Another day, perhaps. And as for Brian, he decided to make his grand entrance back into my life today. What a shame, no?Honestly, I've had enough of his lying and shenannigans. Like, get over yourself, I used to think that you were something special, but now I realize everybody makes mistakes. Some bigger than others. And thus, nothing you say now can bother me. You've a dispensible resource to me, interchangable. And I find comfort in the fact that while you may be interchangable, I know that for now, I've got myself a great group of friends that are here to stay. |
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Good day, overall. I enjoyed the new lesson in math regarding trigonometry... although I did get me off track here and there. Oh well, I found that fun. Then came Religion, which was the same as every other religion class - boring and tedious. Nothing special there, except for perhaps the sneaking a bite of some filipino cookies here and there when Mr. Galka wasn't looking. Music made my day. I forced Champion to make me part of the Spring Concert decorating committee. Well, it's not actually called the Spring Concert anymore, our theme's pretty cool - the mixed tape. Yeah man, my greatest contribution to such a theme was to classify the parts of the performances as "side a" and "side b". Get it? Mixed tape? Yeah it's pretty straight forward, you'd be stupid not to know. Played the intermediate concert songs to practice for tomorrow's festival. It was fun. Art came period four. And let's just say opportunities were available, but even if I wanted to I couldn't take them, because I was out of the class most of the time adding a soundtrack to my movie. Oh well, next time. It's funny how it still gets to me. And the fact that I have a substantial amount of control over how this ends up makes me feel stupid, because it's sort of like, if I don't want to deal with such problems, why don't I just take action for once? |