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Date: Feb 17th, 2008 11:30:19 am - Subscribe
Mood: confuzzled
Music: Reverse this Curse - Escape the Fate
For once in life I'm seriously stumped. I've been confused many times before just these past few days have had my mind doing circles. I miss My Prince Charming so much, havent talked to him in two days. He won't answer his phone and he doesn't call. I'm thinking he wants to break up or something is going on over there. But, that's one thing I don't get, I mean I can understand if he has a commitment not talking much but, he could at least call me like once throughout the span of time it takes. All I'm asking for is 5 minutes, but, I don't ever get it. Oh well, not much I can do I guess. Anyways, besides that there's this guy Taylor, I use to be head over heels for him. He's another Alberta guy. Anyways, I waited around for him for 6 months. Then on New years eve, he told me just to give up on him. Now he told me that Sooooooooooooooooooooooo many times before that this time I decided to take him seriously, so I went and I found Prince Charming. Now, he has come back and wants me back, I don't really know what to do, I mean I'm happy with Prince Charming but, Taytor Tot means the world to me. Wow... I must have a lot of worlds because so far Prince Charming, My kitty (have I mentioned Polly yet?? ), Kyoto (My puppy dogger 
) & Taytor Tot mean the world to me. Anyways, I feel for them equally just, with Prince Charming he never calls anymore and never answers, then with Taytor Tot, I had to wait around for 6 months 4 of which we didnt talk because he was never around then he came back into my life, chucked me to the curb, left and came back within a couple of days. He's been around for about 2 months now and he's just told me that he's been trying to get me back or at least away from Ben because he thinks that Prince Charming doesnt treat me right. THEN I think I'm wanting Alex back (my first "love" then again I didn't feel the way I feel towards Prince Charming, so not sure if its a "love" or a Really like) Well not so much him but, our relationship. It was a WONDERFUL relationship and I wish Prince Charming and mine was the same way. Confession time: I've taken SOOOO many Relationship tests online and I did with Alex too, for Prince Charming the answer is always "PERFECT GUY! GREAT RELATIONSHIP!!! YOUR IN LOVE!!!" But, with Alex they were always "He Needs to listen more. So so relationship. You love him but, he doesnt love you." but, in my opinion, its the complete oppisite. Ben rarely listens to me, and it's really getting annoying. Oh well though, I guess I should really talk to him about it... anyways, back to my confusion. I don't really know what I want anymore all I know is that I "LOVE" Prince Charming and I "LOVE" Taytor Tot and that I want an Percy (Alex) Relationship. This is so complicated. Besides, what in the world am I going on about??? Since when do I care so much? Heh, that sounds quite mean but, it's true. Probably because My depression seems to be coming back, Which is horrible, Quite horrible indeed. I'm thinking about going in to the doctor and seeing about getting depression pills or a physciratrist. Cause I've had thoughts about the big "S" if you get my drift. Maybe I should just take a break and go spend some time at home, that could make things better. Anyways, If there is anyone who reads this, which I doubt, Feel free to give me some advice.
New Favorite Song:
Reverse This Curse- Escape the fate
A withered past and a blurry future,
My hearts on an auction,
It goes out to the highest bid.
I live to fast, and I know I will lose her,
But there is an option, to die is to live in her head.
So I'll hang on, never let go.
I dug this pain into my chest.
[Chorus:]
Instead,
One last chance to reverse this curse,
You stole my heart but I had it first.
And now I see you've got something to prove,
And nothing to lose, so let me tell you the truth.
A deadly wish but it should've come sooner,
A corpse in a funeral that I would never attend.
There is a light on in the back of this house,
But you're not around, to die is to live in her head.
So I'll hang on, never let go.
I dug this pain into my chest.
[Chorus:]
Instead,
One last chance to reverse this curse,
You stole my heart but I had it first.
And now I see you've got something to prove,
And nothing to lose so let me tell you the truth.
So, this goes, out to, the ones that fall in love,
And to, the girl, that filled my heart.
Last night I had the weirdest dream,
That you and I drove up the darkest streets,
Passing through these city lights,
Closure for the kiss that died.
One last chance to reverse this curse,
You stole my heart but I had it first,
And now I see you've got something to prove,
And nothing to lose so let me tell you the truth. [x2]
So, this goes, out to, the ones that fall in love.
And to, the girl, that filled, my, heart.
Comments: (1)
hisaysjake - February 17th, 2008 |
