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coushatta stupid surgery - Subscribe
yeah, surgery again. my dad got his 3rd surgery in two and a half months. this time it wasnt for cancer, but for calcuim buildups in his limphnodes. he is in alot of pain and his left side of his face droops a little, and they say it might forever, or it might heal. they dont know. its so hard to see someone i am so close to go thru that. people take health for granted when they have it and they dont realize just what they have. i always took for granted the fact he was always there for me, now that he seems to be falling apart, i really know what i had. i hate to be making jell-o for him because thats all he can eat, having to get right next to him so i can hear him talk, taking care of my father that i love so much. its a good father-son relationship, unfortunately its been under some pressure, and with me moving soon, i hope he is alright, i WILL stay in real close contact with him. i want all to go okay and i want to stay apart of the family. unlike my brother who is constantly off doing one thing or another and we usually have to call him for things. and he wants to be apart of the family supposedly, but he doesnt do anything to actually BE apart of it. Lizzy (my fiancée) is more apart of the family. she asks how everything is and tells me to tell him that they are thinking of him. she is such a sweet person and so kind at heart. i love her and i am glad that she truely cares like she does! it so so obvious that she does, she is almost as perfect as a person can least for me. we are so much alike and we have almost all the same experiances, yet we only met about 3 years ago. and we each know everything about eachother! EVERYTHING! well, i dont want to sound like a love struck goose, or a depressed fool, so i shall wrap this up.
Mood: mixed
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