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crowsblood I\'m Still Here! - Subscribe
It's finally Friday! Yes! This week has gone so slow. How could they be so cruel? Give you all that time off, and then send you back for a full week!?

I got my grades. They dropped considerably (I've been absent and . . I've become lazy), but they were better than I imagined they'd be. Well, this was only a progress report. I'll try my best to raise them as much as I can. I hope I don't sound too much like a goodie-goodie. ^^;; I just don't want to disappoint my mom again. I've come from having all F's and D's to decent grades! I want to keep it that way. There's no reason why I can't do so.

Welp, I suppose that's all! ^^ I'll have pictures up soon, probably by tomorrow or Sunday. O.O
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Mood: off

crowsblood I\'m Tired of Being Alone Dec 6th, 2004 4:46:28 pm - Subscribe
I'm so tired of feeling so worthless and alone. Today I just cracked. No one ever acknowledges me, no one cares for me. Those who act so will soon find out who I am, and then leave me. Some even use my problems as a weapon, or use them in a way to make themselves feel superior to me. I'm hurt and trying, but no one sees nor hears me. My mom doesn't even take me seriously anymore. I sure now that I'll be alone forever, and I don't really see a point to life anymore. Being ugly, terrible, invisible me is tiring.

Don't tell me to keep trying, nor tell me that I'm wrong or my emotions are fake. Actually, I'd love it if you DIDN'T respond. Nothing you say can change anything, you're just the same as one of them. I'd like nothing more than to give up, lie down, and fade away. If I'm nothing as a person, then I want to be nothing at all.

Oh, and just to tell you, this isn't a suicide wish. I just don't want to think or feel anymore.
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Mood: upset

crowsblood Survey, Quizlets, and a Strange Coincidence! Dec 7th, 2004 12:06:47 am - Subscribe
I'm sitting here, listening to music to get my mind off of life in general. I just took a survey and some quizlets for the fun of it. They're below, obviously.

50 Different Questions

Created by sugaraddict113 and taken 25 times on bzoink!

Do you remember your dreams?Yes
If you woke up with the ability to be invisible, where would you go first?Go rob a bank for the future, and then steal stuff at random stores.
What do you want to do with your life?Fade away.
If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?Japan.
Have you ever had a dream come true?Noooooope.
Are you a good student?My grades are average. My performance (listening, manners) excels.
Have you ever wanted to start up your own business?No. I did that in Into to Business, though.
How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?None.
How many people have you kissed?Nobody except my family.
Do you think that premarital sex is wrong?Whaa . .?
What was your favorite toy as a child?I don't remember.
What’s your biggest pet peeve?Kurama fangirls that diss on Karasu WAAY too much. I mean, it's just a damn anime cartoon, dammit!!
What countries outside of the U.S. have you been to?None.
Have you ever been to a concert?Yes. A country concert, thought. x_X
Have you ever been to a professional sports game?No. I don't like sports.
Is there anything that you can do that most other can’t?No. I'm fucking untalented.
How many different places have you lived in?A few.
Do you prefer a lot of girl friends or a lot of guy friends?There isn't such thing as a "friend."
When was the last time you met someone new?Are you making me think?!
Do you follow your own advice?Yes.
Everyone has an obsession. What’s yours?Karasu from YYH. How embarrassing!
Would you rather take a test, write a paper, or make a class presentation?Write a paper.
Have you ever wished that you looked like someone else?Pfftt, yeah!
Do you exercise?No.
What’s one thing you want to learn?How to speak Japanese
How many times have you been in an airplane?DON'T make me THINK!!!
Would you go sky diving if given the chance?Yes.
Do you consider yourself computer-savvy?Yes.
Who should pay on a date?x_X
What television show have you watched since you were little?PowerPuff Girls!! XD
What do you think about AOL?I don' t know. They suspended my AIM account for some nonexistant reason.
Do advertisements work on you?No?
Have you ever broken a law?I'm sure I have.
Have you ever changed your hair in any way?Yes. I've cut it, and dyed it a natural wash-out black.
What are your plans for the next year?I don't have any at the moment.
Have you ever kept your New Years resolutions?**shrug**
Do you know what’s going on in our world right now?A little bit.
If your house was on fire, what would you grab first?My . . uh . . everything. --_--
What do you spend most of your time doing?Computer!! Internet!! *drools**
When you’re upset, is it best to leave you alone or try to help you out?Leave me alone. And for God sakes don't TOUCH me!!
If you could meet one person, dead or alive, who would you meet?Karasuuu! He isn't real!! ^^ XD
Do you talk in your sleep?I've screamed and cried before.
Would you ever join a sorority or fraternity?Meh?
How many cars have you had?None.
Do you collect anything?Not sure. Check in later, will you?
Do you think there will ever be a woman president?No.
What was your favorite boy band growing up?Mleh?
Who was your childhood best friend?Victoria Hess. I don't like her anymore, though. I don't even know where she LIVES!! That was centuries ago.
How many interviews have you had?None. Who'd interview me?!
Do you prefer constant warm weather, constant cold weather, or a mix?A mix. I want it to be what I want it to be when I want it to be!

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why are you soo cool?

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name
age
birthday
sex
favorite color
your cool because you listen to led zepplin and everyone follows you in your music choices
also, because you always look like your7
you have this much money$1,389,003.26
sexJune 02, 2006
% of coolness
65%



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Meh, I didn't know I listened to Led Zepplin. No one ever told me I looked 7, either. I think your confusing me with to one on top of my hate list, Chris Hedden.

How many people hate you?

Created by KerianaWilliams and taken 13958 times on bzoink!

Name?
Age?
Favourite colour?
People that hate you:367
You willl be murdered because people hate you.True



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Thought so . . . x_X Hm, Kariana Williams. Sounds a bit like the FF.net author Kariana Kusanagi, who's real name is Cece Williams. What a coincidence!

I hear wind. I wonder if it's raining.
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Mood: annoyed

crowsblood Nothingness Dec 7th, 2004 9:27:11 pm - Subscribe
I don't know what to write! My day went pretty smooth, I don't think I got pissed off once. That's a huge surprise, especially for a B-day, since the evil, eight-year-old boy-looking Chris Hedden resides in my art class, first period. I hope there's a chance I can change what period I have the class next semester. I can hardly stand her!

My thoughts are pretty unorganized, can't you tell? I can't even write sentences the right way!

I like all the comments I got in my last blog entry. ^^ Thankies! I didn't realize I was that interesting!
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Mood: random

crowsblood Spike-Ball Kitty Kitty, My TigerLily! Dec 8th, 2004 12:57:16 am - Subscribe
Oh, I forgot. There was one fun part of the day; I washed my kitty. ^^ I was going to take a shower myself, so I grabbed her and decided to clean her as well. I'm sure she didn't appreciate it. After I soaped and bathed her, I dried her off real quick and took some time to myself in the shower, while she mewed pathetically, all wrapped up in her wet green towel. Poor thing, she didn't forgive me. I tried blow-dying her since she looked like a spikey ball of hair, and she ran behind the Christmas tree and didn't come out for a while.

She forgives me now, though. I'm sure she enjoys feeling clean and smelling like milk and roses. Right now she's behind my closed door, meowing so I'll let her in and cuddle with her. I love my fat kitty kitty, my TigerLily, so much! <3 <3 <3

I should post some pictures of her. She's a beautiful calico. Our two dogs are kewl, too. Everyone falls in love with Kiwi, the shitsu, and Shadows a gorgeous blue merle miniature sheltie.
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Mood: fluffy