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crowsblood
Yo!
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| Yo! Long time, no see . . again. I don't really think I'm going to be doing a layout anytime soon. My dad's even being more of an ass, so there's no way I can make a cool layout and post it here. Have I mentioned my problem with my computer mouse? Yeah, well, it's not getting any better. It'll be a damn miracle if I'm able to post this. Several people have told me that it's the mouse that's giving me the problems, not the computer. I suppose I'll believe them. After all, I've done everything on my computer to try to solve the problem, and nothing has worked. There's just certain things that it does that make me go, "Hmm . ." Everything here has been terrible. My dad, school, etc. One more thing to add to my list is that I've stopped taking my medication. So, my body is really out-of-whack right now. I'll get better, though. I can't guarantee I'll pass my classes this year, though. Heh. We have nothing to drink in this house! What goes with greasy pizza better than a nice cold coke? Too bad all I can find is water. Ugh . . |
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crowsblood
Lat Day for Seniors
May 18th, 2005 6:20:07 pm - Subscribe
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| So, it was the last day of school for all the seniors. I only know one senior, Koyako, whom I never see at school and always am able to visit. Why do I feel so empty and depressed that they're all leaving? Maybe it's because I'm afraid of change. >_> Anyway, I feel kind of depressed, that feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when you're saying goodbye permanently, or when someone you know-but don't quite know enough to personally care for-dies. I hope I can go to Koyako's graduation ceremony. I should go running around, hugging people and saying, "Don't goooo!" ^^ Other than that, here's an interesting fact: I threw up at school twice, and I got to come home early. o_O |
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crowsblood
I Might Be In Deep Shit!
May 20th, 2005 10:09:24 pm - Subscribe
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| Not cool, not cool. My friend Shipper is supposed to gather up some of her friends (because I don't have nearly enough in this stupid town) for a movie that I have to write and film for my final project in Language Arts. Sadly, she's leaving my on the edge here. She might have to babysit, and the damn lady won't tell her when, so I won't know until tomorrow. Sunday's only a day away after Saturday, people! I have to do this! I have bad karma when it comes to Shipper, I swear. Everything always tries to happen when we try to get together. However, this is much more important than a silly get-together; my passing of LA relies on this. |
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crowsblood
Hate List - People and Life
May 21st, 2005 12:33:54 am - Subscribe
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| I hate . . . ** I hate how everyone only talks to me if they want something from me. ** I hate how people see my annoyance as bitchiness. Seriously, am I going to be happy if one person after another wants something from me? ** I hate how everyone seems to laugh at me, like I'm stupid, when there's clearly nothing to laugh about. ** I hate how people get pissed when I jokingly say I'm stupid, and yet, stupid is just how the precieve me. ** I hate how everyone thinks I'm weak, just because I'm skinny. Or how they ask if I'm anorexic, or comment on other things about my fucked-up health. It's really nothing I can change, I've been checked . . . ** I hate how most other people have more than I do, or are able to be more than I will ever be. ** I hate how my weaknesses seem to magnified by situations. ** I hate how no one can love me. ** I hate how I'm not good enough for anyone. ** I hate how I'm not pleasing to the eye. ** I hate how I have to deal with things that other teens don't have to, and as a result, I know too much, I feel too much, and I can't enjoy life and be happy. Something is always bothering me, something is always wrong. I don't ever think I've been geniunely happy, and it's probably impossible for me in the future. ** I hate people that are so happy, show-off, and have so many friends. I hate it when they make comments that show how great, brave, pretty, etc, they are. ** I hate so much more about like and people, that I could go on and on . . . ** Most of all, I hate myself. |
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crowsblood
Brief Update
May 22nd, 2005 12:38:00 am - Subscribe
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| I'm at Shipper's house, spending the night and "supposed to be doing the script for the skit tomorrow." XD We've got nothing done, and we're just sitting her surfing for her sim stuff. Shipper says, "When life, or anything, get's hard, fuck it! Ha . . hahaha . . Sorry." XD |