tormented
Date: Dec 25th, 2009 10:18:05 pm - Subscribe
I woke up with this horrible feeling in my chest. I couldn't dislodge the pain in my chest. I cried unending tears until I felt sick..had to rush for the basin before I threw up. Fortunately there was nothing except bile and saliva as I didn't have my dinner last night..just skipped my breakfast too. I'm still horribly upset. Last night my cousin called me..I felt better just by hearing his voice, felt some kind of comfort which I rarely feel. He is someone I can count on as a true friend. I could tell he knew something was wrong with me, I also knew he knew that I won't tell him anything about it. He always understands me so well. I remember last time how I used to share stuffs with him but this time I don't want to. I don't want to give any one any reason to feel any sort of sympathy for me. So I keep it all within me..now it has built up so much I feel like I'm at the breaking point. I keep thinking with time the pain will lessen but it just intensifies every second. I know there's only one antidote to this pain and right now he seems to be avoiding me at all costs. I called him only find the answering voice. It brought a fresh bout of tears. If a heart could literally break mine must be shattered into a zillion pieces by now. Why am I being punished this way? Why me Allah?
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