Date: Jul 12th, 2017 10:27:26 pm - Subscribe
These days I feel so low, I feel as if someone has reset my brain structure and chemical balance.
Everything I had become since J left, this heartbreak has undone it all. I am back to my crazy self.
I hate the chemical structure of my brain. I hate how sensitive I am. I hate my empathy. I hate my strong conscience. I hate how repressive I have become over the course of my life. I hate my self worth that if it comes to ending me in order to protect someone I will always make the sacrifice. And mostly I hate this fucked up, cruel, cold world that feels so indifferent to my lifelong struggle to be myself, for making me feel I don't belong here. I will never belong here. I cannot survive here.
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