sad, depressed, headache
Date: Aug 8th, 2005 5:56:49 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Pissed off/depressed
o__o: Shut the fuck up and let me die.
Everyon hates me... well... that's what it seems like anyway....
I'll start from the beginning.
A few hours ago, I was chattin in a chatt room on yahell. Well, I ran into a pedophile. Two of them, to be exact. And I went to yahoo webpage to turn them in, BUT I CAN'T FIND THE FUCKIN' ABUSE BUTTON! 
That pissed me off sooooo bad!!!
And then to make matters worse, my brother comes to me and has me smell a new body soap... think it's tag... and he asked me what I thought of it and I was in the middle of answering him when he interupted me and called me a poser for favoring Axe. That I liked only brand names and not the smell. I favor Axe because of the smell. I wouldn't care if the brand name of Axe was Cow Dung! the smell reminds me of James, cause that's the kind James was wearing last I saw him... David practically called me a poser for missing James... that hurt... cause that's like saying I shouldn't miss him.... And then about half an hour later, I tell David that there's nothing wrong with favoring something that reminds you of someone you cannot see anymore. David got pissed and my dad butt in. He asked me was was wrong... and a few words into my explaination, He cut me off and yelled, "DROP IT!" That made me cry cause no one listens to me... ever.
I hate my family. My brother Daniel molested me when I was younger, which has scarred me for life, and my parents arn't proud of me at all, no matter what, which hurts really really bad. (Mom put me down for the idea for me to give her my first few pay checks) And David's just hurtful! I can't wait four more years. I can't live with this family that much longer. I was happy as fuck when I was 12. Now look at me. I'm gonna be dead by my 16th b-day. I've already almost OD'd twice... almost stabbed myself... almost slit my wrists. I'm suicidal, but not insane. I just want out. And not to a mental institute. That'll make me go even more insane cause then I'll know my family really doesn't want me.
Did you know I'm the only one of the three (Out of me and my two brothers) that wasn't an accident? Yet I'm treated as I'm not even a family member. Daniel's going to college, but I don't think things are going to get any better around here. I NEED OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
End of entry... comments please. And if you have something mean to say, don't even say anything at all, cause I know you don't care about my problems. You're here on Aeonity blog cause you have problems of your own. No one really cares about my problems.
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