the day of reckoning is at hand for me. I screwed up everything this weekend. not going into too much details alcohol can ruin a great thing. in a sense it helped me to have a revelation of what is important in my life and how close i am to losing something that would tear me apart.

only i could single handedly destroy everything in my world with my own stupidity. hopefully i can mend the deep gouges i have caused and become a better person from it. can a person really change their colors? i sure hope so cause i hate living like how i am living.