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darkpiglet First attempt at BLOG!!! - Subscribe
Haha...
This is my first attempt at blog... I always used to think it is a waste of time, but recently when I read back some of the sms that i kept in the phone dating months back, I found it so interesting to read! Cause it gives me flashback as to what happened months ago...
The events that took place, the feelings back then, the mistakes I made... But all these would definitely be better protrayed in a blog...
Basically I create a blog for MYSELF to read, but of course, actually anyone is welcome... I'll write about almost anything. No offense to anyone if they just don't like my comments and all...
The problem now is that I wonder how long I will continue writing blogs... Keke..
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Mood: dense

darkpiglet It\'s been 5 months... Oct 31st, 2005 9:32:16 am - Subscribe
It's been 5 months being with her... on and off... These five months were the happiest five months i ever experience... I have never love someone so much before... And a girl has never love me so much back...

But these 5 months were also the most painful (besides those times after my mother's demise)... Because she is already attached to a great guy... And she is my colleague. Tongues will sure to wag if she leaves her boyfriend for me. She, her boyfriend and me were all under the same organisation. My career, as well as hers, will be greatly affected.

It was tough on us. I had to hide my feelings for her whenever someone we know was around. When I did something nice and romantic to her, it has to be "underground". I was okay in the beginning of this relationship, but as time goes by, I felt guilt and neglected. She was still with her boyfriend and her boyfriend knows nothing about my existence (he left the organisation before I joined). I started to find faults in her and me. Start feeling I'm a relationship wrecker, a hypocrite for doing all this. I greatly upset her several times... But she always forgive me, take me back... My siblings know about this and they both (elder brother + younger sister) feels that she is cheating me. But I know best... She really loves me a lot... She is really stuck in this dilemma. If she choose me, I will be despised by my colleagues. And I can't quit my job... I'm still bonded for 3 more years...
But recently, after another unhappy episode, we decided to end all this and be good friends... I guess we were both tired already... I'm sad things cannot work out, but I knew it would turn out like this one day...
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Mood: deprived

darkpiglet DOTA!!! Oct 31st, 2005 11:47:47 pm - Subscribe
Recently got slightly addicted to Frozen Throne's Dota! It's a player vs player game that can be both played via LAN or internet... You get a team of up to five players and crash the opposition team's castle! Full of strategies, back-stabbing and not to mention, FUN!!!

The last PVP game I got addicted to is 3corridors. That was 2 years ago... I like playing games, but I make sure my life don't revolves around just that. Life's full of things to do and think about. Games are just one of them...

Today is my off day! Think going to get my friends to play Dota with me (they like it too!) Helps to clear my head of her a bit too... Miss her very much at times, but what can I do right? When I'm free, I'm going to post advise to people what I have learn about love triangles... hope it will help them. I'm very interested in psychology, next time will pursue in a career involving it... Meanwhile, I'll concertrate on my paramedic job...
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Mood: excited