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velouria The Bull In The China Shop - Subscribe
Sheldon Construction has been installing the sewer in my neighborhood. I'm sure they do an excellent job, but they leave destruction in their wake.

Over the span of two weeks, this is what occured:

1. Early one morning Sheldon Const. cut my cable line in two. (The cable company later tried to charge me two service fees because they didn't make good notes on the problem)
2. A few days later, Sheldon Const. hit a water line. When I came home, I had air/mud in my lines for several hours. I probably have some leaks now although I'm not yet aware.
3. A few days after that, Sheldon Const. knocked out the power to eight homes in my area.
4. Two days later nature (NOT Sheldon Const) happened upon my house. I was on my bed when I saw lightning strike my house seven feet away at my window. My phone/internet was knocked out for 2 1/2 days.
5. Five days after the lightning strike, Sheldon visited me again. I came home Thursday night to find my cable line had been ripped off my house! haha Cable came out on the 4th of July and fixed it.

I only have one untouched utility: GAS
Let's hope nothing happens there...we would not want that happy.gif
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Mood: touched

velouria Holter Monitor Jun 17th, 2008 5:34:09 pm - Subscribe
I got a Holter Monitor put on yesterday. I have to wear it for 24 hours. I can take it off today at 2:13 PM happy.gif

I hope it caught my heart doing crazy stuff! I do NOT want to have to wear this monitor again. It was only for 24 hours, but it was a real pain. I couldn't sleep well because I was worrying about it all night lol
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Mood: agitated

radio Photo Time! Jun 11th, 2008 10:45:55 am - Subscribe
my wedding and honeymoon pics.
www.redfly-design.com/union
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Mood: whatever

radio Complaints Jun 11th, 2008 10:42:27 am - Subscribe
wad a day?!?!
I hate my job and I hate to be here everyday, anytime that I can avoid coming, I'll try. SIGH. I don't know what I like anymore, sometimes it seemed more like being comfortable at this level and not willing to give up for all that I have worked for.

Unfortunately I am one of those unlucky ones who hate what they do for a living. Some people don't mind their jobs, some even love it. But sadly I hated mine, and I have to jiggle it alone. I am so tired sometimes, mentally drained. And I have became so absent-minded, I always forget things.

Everyday's a drag.
Only the part which I spend time with my students are truly enjoyable, brought me back to where I used to be, and what I used to like.

Do you have a goal in life? Are goals achiveable or are they far-fetched?

I don't really seemed to care anymore. And one day I will leave this place. I will miss it but I will also be truly happy.

I have been so depressed these days because of my job, I just want to stay home everyday and not go to work. HELP!! Maybe I desperately needed some holiday..short getaway to some beach resort...maybe even GENTING!!!!

People around me are all pregnant!?!??! GOsh. So many, it's like a fashion statement. Come in all different sizes, big and small. I am not sure whether I want to be pregnant or not, I want to be ready. But I don't think anyone will ever be ready for such things. Such a huge committment, of course I will like to have a baby eventually. Well, I'll leave it to God, if he feels that I am ready then so be it! I missed my period for 2 weeks, and I was so worried that I am pregnant! And then it came, surprisely I was rather disappointed but was also relieved. I guess then, I am not ready.?

Another day ended at work, and I felt lethargic.

Went to Lawry's for steak the other day, very nice ambience and excellent steak! yummy. Wanted to order wine but thought we may burnt a big hole in our pockets. hehehe...rather, my hubby's pocket. But I think the price worth it for the wonderful meal that came.

Finally bought a MIU MIU bag during the recent GSS!!!! A lot of wonnderful bargains at great discounts!!! Saw one Burberry bag at 50% off..OMG! it's so pretty. *control*

When will I be a rich tai tai??
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Mood: powerless

starrylife The O Monster is going to get me Jun 4th, 2008 6:21:46 am - Subscribe
Oh gosh, I can see a big O monster coming towards me now...it's not too far away, and with my slow running speed, it's going to catch up with me pretty soon, really soon...and if it does, I will be doomed...
At the beginning of the year, I've went hiking with 230 over friends in the woods. We have all been warned about a scary monster who looks like an "O" and who will eat people who are slow.
When I was in the woods, I saw no sign of the O monster. Thus, I thought that the legend is false and there is no such monster in reality. However, some of my friends have already started to run off, just after they first heard about the O monster.
"There's no monster, what are they scared of?" I thought. So, day after day, weeks after weeks, I hiked my way through the woods slowly, examining any unusual fauna and flora on my way and enjoying the lush greenery around me.
Then, during the fifth month, we were reminded that we have to get out of the woods by October, if not the O monster will get us.
Frightened by the thought of not being able to get out of the woods forever, we all ran, but not for long.
We stopped after we felt that we have ran quite a distance, and slept for a month.
Then we were woken up by a noisy "crunch" sound. We looked in the direction of the noise, and we gasped at what we saw.
It is the O monster! Though it was a few kilometers away from us, it looked as tall as a mature 25-year-old tropical rainforest tree!
We all stood rooted to the ground in fear for a few moment.
Then, some of us woke up from our fear and started running. When we were running, we looked back a few times and I saw that there were still people who have not waken up from their fear; or, perhaps, they could not.
We ran, but nobody ever ran back to save the other friends who were going to be eaten up by the O monster.
We have been running for days, but still, we could see the outline of the O monster far, far away.
We cursed and we swore. We hated ourselves for not believing the tale from the beginning. We hated ourselves for only running for our lives after we have seen the O monster for ourselves.
"Why?", we once screamed while running. "Why are we so STUPID?"angry.gif

*The O Monster is a metaphor for the "O" level examinations.* sad.gif
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Mood: serious

wade Logging the sick Apr 19th, 2008 7:08:08 am - Subscribe
Cold. Thursday, I woke up with a slightly raw throat. I figured I was getting sick. Friday, my right nasal passage is plugged. By now, I have cold like symptoms. Runny nose and stuffy nose.

Sad. I wanted to make it without getting sick until June, making it a year.
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marlene Send me right back from where i came Apr 12th, 2008 10:32:40 am - Subscribe
So I've moved in with a friend from work, its going quite well. She keeps trying to set me up with men though, which is kinda weird.

Got my own xbox finally, some sweet games on it. I'm an addict of GH3 ...
My GT is Sensarity if anyone else is an xbox nerd like me, add it.

anyway, I cant sleep, been too busy rearranging my room, got it done for the most part, having trouble finding a good tv to invest in. Bought one second hand, but found out you cant get to the input without a remote (which it didnt come with) so I can't even use it for gaming.
Oh Well.

Lifes good none the less, I think
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Mood: ...
Music: Spoon

joanne pagod na ko... Apr 9th, 2008 5:59:26 pm - Subscribe
I had enough.... my life has been a roller coaster. i need a new life. all about my life are sooooo complicated. i have fallen inlove to guys that hurt me all the freeakkkking time. I blame myself. Ang manhid kasi ni TOYO. Hindi nya alam I am willing to give up evrything, but on the second thought ang hirap i-give up anything when you feel in the end xa hindi kayang mag-giveup even just a little bit.

Somehow I need to wake up....but I don't know how.
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Mood: indecisive

marlene tenderly kissed Mar 29th, 2008 5:57:07 am - Subscribe
Ever have those days you feel so undesirable and uninteresting and have convinced yourself you are the most boring person on earth? Welcome to my every day life.

I think lately I've done well at convincing myself otherwise though. I have a girl thats interested in me, unfortunately we both suck at organizing schedules and being the man. My roommate said I was the coolest girl he has ever met with the best sense of humor (blush) and I got a review at work worthy of a twenty cent raise and praise from the boss. Life was going great, till my roommates started asking stuff from me I don't know I can give.

I need to talk to my mom.

The best part of my day though was this;



I thought it only appropriate to have a travel mug that best describes me in some way, since I work at a coffee shop.
I'm way too excited about it.
Kinda pathetic? Maybe not ...atleast before I took a picture of it ...and posted it ...

-marlene
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Mood: meh
Music: grandaddy - miner at the dial-a-view

marlene its easy Mar 28th, 2008 6:06:00 am - Subscribe
i'm so tired of myself, my sad, over emotional emo self. i hate being mad at someone, so furious about something so ridiculous, yet they don't see the problem, then when youre finally able to say how fucking pissed you are, you act like a bimbo just to keep the peace as if everything is ok.

well everything isn't ok

and i need to run away, run back home. i dont know if i want pity, or if i want to leave just so a year or two down the line, theyll have regrets. i dont even know if he'd miss me if i was gone. maybe thats what i want to find out.

dont even listen to me, i just want to whine to someone who isnt myself for a change.
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Mood: irked
Music: grandaddy - revolution cover

radio The BDAY episode Mar 24th, 2008 8:26:42 am - Subscribe
I just wanted to blog about my bday which happened just last week, that I was truly touched and moved by people who spend their precious time with me.

I had 3 cakes, 2 gifts and one hell of a beautiful lilies' bouquet, and I wanted to upload the pics. But too bad, it was all taken with my camera phone, and I haven't had a chance to install the driver so thus, no pics for now.

My students are so kind and lovely, and I am so happy that they took the efforts to celebrate my 29th bday.

Felt really warm and fuzzy within. happy.gif
BEAR HUG for all who came and blew the candles with me!

Still contemplating on what I want for my bday, didn't want others to spend unnecessarily for me. So I will like to buy things that I really need. *scratch head*
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Mood: great

marlene Paranoid Android Mar 20th, 2008 6:39:39 am - Subscribe
Lifes been pretty great, met up with my lady friend and we watched some tv together. She asked to take me out to dinner sometime so as much as I hate to admit it, it might be my first actual date.
Hopefully it goes well.

I'm so addicted to Daria.

Lifes been boring, no work tomorrow, don't know what I'll do, but it should hopefully be fun.
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Mood: super
Music: Radiohead

marlene I spent the summer wasting Mar 17th, 2008 7:20:02 am - Subscribe
I wanna start writing like I used to, idea after idea of amazing fictional work of a dream world I could only wish I was in. I wish i didnt lack the inspiration.

Where is my happiness. I think I'm happier alone even if I'm more lonely. F*k relationships and commitment, I live for me.
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Mood: queasy
Music: Belle and Sebastian - A Summer Wasting

marlene i might drift forever more Mar 16th, 2008 5:02:33 pm - Subscribe
i'd sure like to come asore sometime.

Got an email from my mom. Brother OD'd again. Looks like the fool isn't gonna make a comeback this time. I wish this wasn't so fucked. She said she wanted me home and shes in the darkest part of her life ever. Why am I such an asshole for staying here? Why can't I leave my "perfect" happy life here to go stay with my famiy.
I guess I'm scared.
I'll be going for the funeral.

What a day to get called in to work. Why couldn't I read this email first before I made the call.
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Mood: undescribable
Music: Grandaddy - Guide Down Tonight

marlene lately, you're all i need Mar 16th, 2008 9:15:35 am - Subscribe
things have been strange. theres this girl im really interested in but im too stupid or insecure or something to go after it with as much enthusiasm as i know i have buried somewhere deep inside. shes great.
shes also got me addicted to this show. The L Word.
its further convinced me how big a lesbian i am and have been for longer than i should admit.

my roommate has been trying to get me to go back to being 'straight' for him but i cant keep lying to myself. i hate hurting him every time he asks me, but ever since ive come out to him things have been so awkward.

so aside from the l word and working, ive been entertaining myself with many episodes of daria, family guy and robot chicken. Of course much devil may cry 4 and halo 3 on the side.
i just bough The Darkness on ps3 and im quite excited to play it.

thus concludes another boring entry to my more than bland blog. but this is for me so ill do what i want =) i have more l word to be watched.

much love whoever made it this far, you're amazing~
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Mood: spastic

velouria Willows Mourn Mar 13th, 2008 5:21:18 am - Subscribe
We met upon a mossy lane
‘Neath many a shady tree.
We walked about and spoke of life
As it were meant to be.

My love and I, our lives were one
He took my heart that day.
I ne’r again need walk alone
We’d be wed right away.

My love, then spoke those sad’ning words
I so yearned not to hear
He said to war he must then go
But that I should not fear

My love so long did fight so true;
My heart in constant pain.
Then one grey day I sensed the shock;
Knew it’d not be the same.

The shot that brought him down that day;
Surely, it pierced my heart.
Right then I knew I mustn’t live
Lest we be kept apart.

But on that night, he came to me,
Said there, I should remain.
Alas I felt that this was wrong;
My love I’d not refrain.

So out I went into the night
In search of his dear soul
And now my spirit roams these woods
The Willows sing my song.

Green willows mourn this day
And whisper this sad tune
A song of love and loss it be
Until our great reun’n
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Mood: Celtic
Music: Willows Mourn

radio Vday in Paris! Mar 12th, 2008 7:16:02 am - Subscribe
How romantic is that?! We had champagne from Italy and chocolates from Switzerland! And celebrate in our Posh hotel in Paris, so cooooool...!

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Mood: lovely

marlene it's looking even better over your cold shoulder. Mar 5th, 2008 6:06:32 pm - Subscribe
I really don't want to work today.
Just wanna stay home, play videogames, chill on the computer.

Don't you hate wasting money and getting ripped off? Its such a piss off.

My new laptop is awesome, despite a few vista flaws, Ive figured most of it out. I got the last one in the store so unfortunately it was the one they kept in the display and everythings named STORE and shit.
I'm kinda annoyed, it said at the store and on the pc "250GB" it has two harddrives that add up to 222GB and like ...20 GBs are takin up by vista saving things i can't delete without permission.
I dunno, its weird.

Sorry I'm so boring today. Lemme think of something a little more interesting.

My work fired someone off the midnight shifts and they asked me to take over them 11-7this week. I only agreed to 1 for thursday and friday, so hopefully it wont be too horrible. Im just worried theyll ask me to keep doing it next week, then the week after. I think I made it clear only this week though. I hated midnights, I don't even get paid extra by the hour like I should.

That girl I liked, I don't know whats up with her, we stopped talking and aren't hanging out. It was unfortunate, I liked her. =(
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Mood: loving
Music: The Dresden Dolls - Good Day

marlene new laptop Mar 3rd, 2008 9:48:42 pm - Subscribe
new computer, im so happy =D
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Mood: happy

tahksik hmmm Mar 1st, 2008 1:00:26 pm - Subscribe
I like blogging ... I'm gonna try to keep it positive, though.

Sooooooooooooooooooooooo

Yesterday was eventful. I had court and I was able to get away with a fine. Afterwards, I WAS going to go back to school, but I figured fuck it, so I ate and went to see Mike.

Mike wasn't feeling well. He had a friend over and they were chillin. We went out for coffee, but he wasn't feeling any better, so we parted ways.

Then I went to stage tech for a whole. That was funn ... I painted, I put holes in things. I'm gonna learn how to do the lights for the play. Should be fun.

Afterwards, I went home. My mom found a mouse and was sitting in the car. She was waiting for me to get home. I managed to get it into a box and let it go outside. She thinks I killed it, though ...

Then I ate, and things like that. I got unlimited texting, now, so that's cool.

Then, me and Mike had a small talk and I went to go see him. We lied around and watched a movie.

things are good.

really good

better than they've ever been.

I have to get blood work done. The last time I've had it done was, like, a year ago. Now, for the new place I'm going to, I need it again. Or something. iono.

Might start the meds again. I came off those a bunch of times, but they were killing me. They made me sooooo sick it was bad. And don't even bother with mixing and matching.

Either way, the new place is under my mom's insurance and she knows some of the peeps that work there. so Yay?

haha

iono

I need to do something. I'm starving and I can't eat until I get the fucking blood taken or something. It sounds like a load of horse shit, but -- whatevs ...
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Mood: shiny
Music: Dead End Roads and Lost Highways -- James Hart