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deathcab4u a song to pass the time - Subscribe
I missed all of philosophy and most of English today. After english I saw Tony! I ran and gave him a big hug and I was happy. He didn't say anything about my lip sad.gif

That's okay, I'll call him next week and we can get lunch I hope. I sure miss Tony, I should call him more often but between school work and spending time with Laurel I haven't put aside time to call him. Punk could call me but he has all the same stuff goin' on. Aaanyways...now that i feel realy gay.

So I missed some classes, finished the day and drove to see the head doctor. It was painless, just got a prescription for my lovely bi-polar II disorder. Apparently bi-polar II isn't as extreme as regular manic deprresion. Either way, I'm nuts and guess it's time to do what's right. He said it takes about five years for people to be properly diagnosed with bi-polar, then another five years before the patients accept taking the medication consistently. It made me feel a little better that it took three years to be properly diagnosed with bi-polar, not depression, and then just another two to decide to take the medication. Woot, go me!

Tonight I have to do laundry. Pack my bags. And get some sleep to be ready to go tomorrow. I kinda wanna watch Grizzly Man again tonight. I really liked the footage of the bears and the foxes. Maybe I'll just fast forward the less quality interviews.

Laurel has been sad lately, and she is sick. Her grandfather isn't doing well and she realy loves him, and it's hurting her a lot.

I hope that shes able to get through it as good as anyone can get through death.

I haven't ever cried for the dead before. Not for my grandpa. Not for the few others that I have known and have passed away.

I wish I were better at sympathy. Like for Laura's grandfather. I wish I was able to say something to make her feel better but I can't. I guess all I can do is understand. I don't know him. I just know her. What I do know is that she is a strong woman. A loving woman. A caring woman. It's okay to worry about her grandfather, it's good that she loves and cares. At least i think they are admirable qualities.

I have a lot running through my mind, but most of it's in the background. I'm mostly relaxed and ready to go away for the weekend. I will miss Laurel and thats about it. I've never been the homesick type.

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Mood: like little worries keep popping in and out of my head. They come up, I acknowledge them and let them free. I\'m also a little chilly
I hear: Bright Eyes-Big Picture

deathcab4u Too much to say Feb 7th, 2006 1:50:24 am - Subscribe
I deffenitly have a lot to say. I don't have it in me to write it all right now.

In short....

Went to northland. Came home. Went to work. Came home.

More details to come!!!
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Mood: lots of starbucks today makes me hyper
I hear: Bob Dylan-Tangled up in blue

deathcab4u a few days later Feb 7th, 2006 4:16:08 pm - Subscribe
Feeling a little lightheaded lately.

So, for the record, I intend to recount memorable events of the last few days.

Friday morning it was raining when Adam(Alyssa's boyfriend and fellow nine/mafia member) came to pick me up and we started our 400 mile trip to Ashland, Wisconsin. A lovely town up by Lake Superior. So after the rain it was clear, and later after the clear it was snowing. Sooo we got to Northland College in Ashland, WI and there waiting for us was Alyssa and Mandy!!! We took our bags in and met their friends and such. Later that night We all went to dinner at one of their friends apartment. We did this to celebrate Mandy's birthday.

So on a side note. Alyssa adopted a cat on saturday and what I heard last night was that the RA heard the kitty meowing and she got caught sad.gif Lame. So now she has to drive him down to Adam this weekend. Also for background on the story, next year Alyssa, Mandy, Brittany and three other girls are getting a house to live in! I will be the guy on the couch next year...jsut go up and visit and sleep on the couch, that is until I attend Northland and live there, hopefully.

So...Saturday. We didn't do too much I dont think? Brittany eventually woke up and was hungry so she and I took mandy's car to go to eat. We walked to this cool store called J.C. Moon's and they sold Body Jewelery, to hookas, purses to playing cards to stickers of Bob Marley. After that I thiink we just hung out again at Alyssa's room with Alyssa, Adam, Mandy, Brittany and myself. We ordered pizza from little ceaser's...woot woot!

Ummm, Sunday we all just hung out again. All being Alyssa, Adam, Mandy, Brittany and myself. We ate and stuff and Adam and I originally planned on leaving at 5pm latest, and we actually left around 6pm or closer to 6:30pm. After much male bonding I made it home around 1am and that was that.

What I learned from all this is...

I loved every minute of the trip...the school and the people and the area.

There isn't a whole ton of stuff to do up at Northland, but I had a great time and didn't want to leave. If I were much crazier I'd have stayed up there and snuck back and forth between Alyssa's and Mandy's room and they would bring me scraps!

And some other stuff I'm sure but that's all for now.

I have a bit on my mind now, so once I sort some of that out I'll write that down as it comes over the next weeks. I need to maek school my #1 priority. Seriously. I have too many distractions and things going on. I want to simplify my life but i don't exacly see a plausable way to do it. This is all do to my own choosing, but somehow I never learn. I think....anyways none of this is ever going to make sense typed if it doesn't make sense in my head ?????????
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Mood: a lil sick, slightly confused, a little sad, mostly tired
I hear: Mute Math

deathcab4u They Shot the Bears... Feb 7th, 2006 10:18:00 pm - Subscribe
Today in critical thinking we read about an incident that happened in 1987 where three young boys were in the polar bear exhibit at the zoo. These boys were taunting the bears and throwing rocks when surprise, the two polar bears attacked the boys. Two of them escaped while one was less fortunate and was killed.

FOur police officers were led to the scene where they proceeded to empty 20 rounds from a 12 gauge shotgun and a .38 caliber revolver into the two animals after it was clear the boy was dead.

Basically, three boys fucked with the bears, one got killed. The cops show, don't think and pump 20 fuckin rounds into the bears and kill two precious animals.

Seriously, why would people go into a polar bear enclosure?! THey eat bigger things than 11 year old boys...helloo. So anyways, through the article my eyes started to get a little wet, and i felt very emotional over two bears that were murdered almost 10 years ago now.

It pissed me off jsut like when the woman was trying to pet the wolf through a fence after hopping another fence to get there...the wolf grabbed hold of her arm and when she screamed a security gaurd ran over and shot the wolf and killed it. Should have shot the fuckin' woman.
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Mood: a lot of things
I hear: Weezer

deathcab4u Oh Oh Goodbye Feb 8th, 2006 6:19:25 pm - Subscribe
Today I made it to work a few minutes late, but right away Abbey, Donnie and I took a field trip to Sears before we had to open the store. We bought cookies and some soda and stuff. Woot Woot!

After work I went over to Laurel's. It was just a little akward for about an hour. Then finaly she said, "I don't think this is working." We both just laughed about it i guess. Neither of us wanted to hurt the other, how charming.

So I made it home okay, I feel a little sick and lightheaded. I need to eat something with nutritional value A.S.A.P.

Merp. I need to do some things around the house. My room is a wreck! I also need to do some homework and get organized with that stuff.

Hopefully after today this feeling that has bothering me will go away, although a different sense of something else has decided to attack me. Theyre closing in! Just kidding...

Um, thats that. I am going to regroup and take back what I've lost, things like my educational motivation and fiscal responsibilty. All that stuff, yeah.
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Mood: confident
I hear: Weeezer oooh oooh ooh