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| If I Dye Tomorrow... |
Dec 5th, 2005 1:46:14 am - Subscribe |
| I am such a sad sad man. I have so many ideas and great plans for myself, but I am always held back. My imagination is held back by my inability to follow through. I think it has something to do with the fact that I have soo many ideas that when I start on one my mind already moves on to another before I can finish the previous. In my head, my life is so fast paced and interesting, which contrasts what's really going on. My life is actually rather slow and impeded by boundaries such as time and money. It may be possible to attibute these setbacks to my lack of patience or ambition to acheive these goals. The thing is, I have made some big acheivments, and done some things that required patience and hard work. I am just not able to apply those qualities to everything. Now one possibility is that I'm too smart for my own good. I see my dreams and am immediately able to know thats they are just that, dreams. I can be a very big thinker. I am always thinking big, but in practice I am often practical and logical. This has it's good points though. It means I never have defeating failures when my dreams crash to the ground, it also has its down side. I never feel the excitement of going for the gold, trying to make those dreams come true. Indeed, it may be emotionally more satisfying to try and fail at grand things than to always succeed at the practical and logical actions I have taken. I have not once taken that leap of faith to try to make a dream come true. It all comes down to control and the fear of failure. I always want to know the answer before I ask the question, the score before the end of the game. I want to know that it will be finished before I start. So what I need to do is come across something I am so passionate about that I don't care if i failed, something I can say, "It was worth running, tripping, and falling flat on my face just to see if I could do it!" Thats what we all need I think. Is to love something so much that we could forget all of our fears and reasoning just for one chance to succeed. One shot at the gold. One brilliant attempt at winning in a world that seems to only hold defeat. Yes, passion, desire, imagination, fearlesness, absolute infatuation to live out our dreams and the unyeilding love and strength of God backing us all the way. What's a better way to live life than that? |
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| mood: intelectual I hear: Panic! At the Disco |
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marlene |
December 05th, 2005 |
| I think I am lucky enough to say I have a large passion. Thats animals. I feel I could very much do anything, say anything to support this passion. I hope to bring this to an all new level when I join this group where we may speak our minds. Maybe begin some handouts of leaflets and get some screenings together. I hate animal cruelty! | ||
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lost_souls |
December 05th, 2005 |
| God don't you just hate the whole restriction with money and time? I have that problem too sometimes - wanting to know the result before it is completed. And I don't really think there is a better way to live life. It's just hard sometimes to live it that way. If you're not in that pattern already, it can be hard to get into it... |
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