deathcab4us Aeonity Blog

must write

Sat, 02 Apr 2011 16:15:43 -0500

in times of serious crazies i tend to throw an entry down on my old friend, Aeonity. the sparse manic entries that i scribble i miss writing, i want to write must write I recently subjected myself to an ordeal of patience, compassion and enlightenment. "Be careful what you wish for," or some variation of the proverb. Enlightenme... Read More

Low Energy

Mon, 11 Jan 2010 13:58:42 -0600

Been up late for too many nights in a row and I feel pretty damn tired finally. I hate when things catch up to me. I run run run, push push push, try to get away with as much as I can. Pushing limits of my sanity, society and political correctness on a daily basis. It isn't that I am extremely active and busy, I just cannot get the rest I re... Read More

while you sleep

Sun, 03 Jan 2010 16:54:59 -0600

I have had a nauseating vortex of thoughts lately. I cant focus but I ponder over fleeting ideas for a few moments before the next idea or distraction. I guess I am coming to accept that bipolar is real. I am doing pretty great the last few months though. I have learned how to do this without medication pretty well. I decided that it is part... Read More

Motivation

Mon, 28 Dec 2009 20:19:26 -0600

I feel motivated to pursue my goals now that I am less upset over the premature ending of what I thought was a nice relationship. I was her first boyfriend so I was silly to think we would make any real connection after all I've been through. But that motivation thing. I am having non stop day dreams about photography, my media company I am wo... Read More

Don't Sleep

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 06:36:26 -0600

..and everything felt good until I fell asleep. There in my dreams I was vulnerable and haunted by the painful memories of bad things that never happened.. ...another piece of my heart handed away. The hole left behind to be filled by her love. Instead darkness sinks in, cold tendrils of despair tighten. For it isn't her that the boy desires now... Read More

fail...

Mon, 21 Dec 2009 20:33:09 -0600

Fooled again. Never been led on this bad. I knew better but I fell for her anyways. The saddest part? I will let it happen again and again and again with each girl I fall for. Where are the girls that are meant for guys like me? ...or is that just a dream I will chase to my grave...... Read More

Merry X-Mas

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 16:02:49 -0600

Well it's that time of year again. Friday nights are pretty low key around the apartment. For me it's the end of a long 6 day work week. I would say I look forward to enjoying my day off (saturdays) but it's always the busiest day of the week. Getting a new bed delivered, need to do some shopping to support the economy, er...christmas. OH.... Read More

Hello, Link on my Favorites Bar

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 14:46:32 -0600

For sake of simplicity I use Safari. It has a nice little favorites bar. This Blog is on that bar. It's crazy how I can see something everyday and not really notice it or give real thought to it. Today was weird for me. I convinced myself of something silly. But I held to my decision about silly thoughts like that, which is not to get c... Read More

Goals

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 23:29:01 -0500

Currently: Quitting Jimmy Johns and beginning at Dominos starting monday. Offer to be assistant manager at Halloween Express with Lauren. As far as money goes making more would be nice but in the long run I think time to devote to personal development, school and volunteering will be more important than paying off all my bills a little faste... Read More

Rainy Day

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 01:46:29 -0500

Sometimes I feel like I am a character in a movie. Except... In movies even the guy I play ends up with some sort of resolution. I don't want to be at the end of my story in any sense, but it sure feels like I experience a lot of conflict for so little reward or consolation. On the bright side, Poison Oak Media is kicking off. ... Read More