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Oct 2nd, 2005 3:15:24 pm - Subscribe |
| I am emo. Not the emo kid that takes himself so seriously that you know they are just being trendy or attention deprived. No, I'm true blue emo for real. Some say I was born emo. I'm not emo because of girl pants or cool shirts. Its not my shoes, coats or awesome hats. It's not about how obscure the bands are that I listen to. Scene points aren't what make me emo. Some may say, "Ross, you are a really happy guy." I say that I don't even cry at funerals. But the truth is, I go for long times holding it together. Even when Life is more than I think I can handle. But there comes a point where every emo kid starts crying in the store on a busy day when a friend that cares asks whats wrong. Yeah, I ask for sundays off - or I even asked to work 11 to 4 - because I have a bible study that means a lot to me. Basically, it's the one real day a week. Every other day is what I never wanted it to be. Wake up late, go to school, go to work, go home and stay up too late because I just want a few hours to be an 18 year old. To add to the work and school I am forced into a consumerism based society. It has come to the point where I can't remember what the last three checks I wrote were for or how much. For all I know I might be 50 negative on my account. Not knowing just adds to the stress. Not being able to save money is stressful too. With what I'm being paid, after regular ecpected expenses I'm lucky to save $50 a month. What will I do if my car dies or something. What If it was reasonable thinking that students need to save some money if they intend to move out someday or go on for a masters degree. My parents can't pay for me forever... So that's why I'm emo. Because I don't mind that I cried at work. It worked out for me. They sent me home because it was obvious that I couldn't spend 6 more hours in that place without crying. Heck, I almost cried on the way home. I feel a little better. The assistant manager that sent me home is going to call the manager tonight to work something out. After calling in last sunday and breaking down today it should be obvious that I can't work the hours they are scheduling me on sundays. I asked for 11-4, and she just said, maybe I can give you every other sunday...the company is the most important thing. Did it occur to her that if the employees can't handle it anymore that maybe she could try to let one of the top sales associates have one comprimise with the company before they lose one of their best employees... |
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| mood: broken down...it had to happen sooner or later I hear: Mineral - GJS |
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for_never |
October 02nd, 2005 |
| 1st of all, thank you for not being a trend. I hope you're ok. | ||
| anonymous |
October 03rd, 2005 |
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| i really enjoyed that entry. incredibly sincere. you dont find that often anymore. |
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