Figuratively Speaking

[	Subject	\|	everythings gray but you're sooo pink to me.	]
[	Date	\|	Mar 14th, 2007 6:42:17 pm - Subscribe	]
[	Mood	\|	sinful	]

Well been MIA for awhile. Moved to Cali... then moved back home. Lots of drama within that time frame.

Try not to think about it... helps a lil bit.

Fell in love yet again. It SEEMED so right. I dont think i'll ever find that again.

And now to top it off his new gf's preggers. JOY! haha. after the sacrifice i made for him hes happy with "their" new child.

well i guess thats life. you're blinded till it hits you right in the face then your left in awe at how cruel it can be.

*secretly i hope she miscarries and his balls fall off*

<3dorkia

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[	Subject	\|	constant sorrow	]
[	Date	\|	Jan 31st, 2005 3:39:52 am - Subscribe	]
[	Mood	\|	alive	]

Is it possible to like one guy and have crushes on two other guys? hmmm.....

well either way no chance with any....

i miss chester and his liprings. and his lovely hair. i wanna run my hands through it just one more time. i want him to tell me what he wanted to and supposedly forgot. but i haven't seen him in soooo long. he said he was gonna get in contact with me, he'd find a way. i fell for that. hahaha just letting me down easy. *sigh* well it was nice just thinking and hanging out just him and I.

cooter likes someone.
sashy likes my cousin who he doesn't know.
chester is MIA

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[	Subject	\|	choking down blood.	]
[	Date	\|	Jan 18th, 2005 11:45:56 am - Subscribe	]
[	Mood	\|	ashamed	]

I'm usually the one who takes care of everyone when they're drunk
"MamaDor" they call me.
But lately I've been getting drunk every weekend after... my friends are all concerned. the ones that really care.
I'm concerned too cause everytime i get drunk i seem to make out with someone. any guy or girl will do. then the regrets come.

But drinking has become my refuge, my outlet, my joy.
It makes me numb and happy when i'm sad and depressed.

fuck i feel like a whore. i mean i don't sleep with them but still. sometimes i come soooo close. so close.

i'm a slut.

"your becoming the people we hate"
"i'm sorry"

lessthanthree

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[	Subject	\|	Happy Effing New Years!	]
[	Date	\|	Jan 3rd, 2005 9:57:48 am - Subscribe	]
[	Mood	\|	smashing	]

Went to Hard Rock got pissed ass drunk. Danced with Jason and Sash. Jumped out of a moving car, ate at Kings. Went to the hotel made out with jen, pappy, and roman. went back to kings with the guys and barfed in the bathroom.

Jason took me home at 6:30.

He's making it impossible to turn away.

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[	Subject	\|	touch me there just once.	]
[	Date	\|	Dec 28th, 2004 10:33:45 am - Subscribe	]
[	Mood	\|	wounded	]

Apparently my plan of "no guys" didn't work.
He penetrated me and now I'm his. BASTARD!

He won't ever see me that way, for he has "someone"
But it's always been that way.
Me wanting something I can never have.

And to top it all off..... I still love my bestfriend. Oh bother.

ahh to leave you with that depressing stuff is sad soooo on a better note WORK IS GOOD!!!! get paid on Friday. woopwoop.

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