damn boy! - aberzombies

katie (salmon) has finally disengaged from sharing with colton, and is now on her peculiar own. cynical and misanthropic by nature, she has no time for the outside world. this is her home.

together, colton and katie had the Best Hair Ever.

p.s. all quotes/everything written in this blog is 100% (c) me or occasionally colton. you'll know its colton because he sounds like a pompous idiot.

note: i'm not as dumb as i sound in recent entries, i promise. if you go back a little further, and read a little more, i do have a brain. you'll figure that out. due to recent triumphs (and tragedies) i've forgotten some lessons that i have learned over these 2 very eventful years. i know that most of the people i've loved and lost through out my life would not recognize me today, but i am slowly changing back into the person i once was, even though i do not have that many opportunities to do so. i've forgotten everything i've been taught, but hopefully this summer, with your help and my own strength, i will morph into a new person. thank you for reading my blog. (and i don't give two fucks if you don't.)

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sous-chef	Jun 24th, 2008 3:40 pm - Subscribe
so next week, im going to try and make it in to that posh restaurant on queens st. i think colton brother might get us in but w/e, i wanna go with my mom. i know she doesn't support my cooking aspirations, but i still don't give a fuck. i mean, look at donatella arpaia? she's done it. the same way i want to. i don't hate food, as many people misunderstand. i love food. i've realized that food gives off many of the strongest sensations in the world. it's amazing. it changes people.
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how to prepare beans (2)	Jun 23rd, 2008 11:11 pm - Subscribe
jesus. my pulse just sped up more then it ever could when i work out. i'm shaking. I'M SHAKING FROM WRITING A GOD DAMN BLOG ENTRY JESUS CHRIST SAVEEE MEE oh, but maybe this is occuring because i just initiated conversation with you? maybe? maybe because you're telling me about her.
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how to prepare beans	Jun 23rd, 2008 11:09 pm - Subscribe
jk i'm feeling sick, and queasy. i keep seeing myself in the near future working 24/7 because thats the only thing i've got going for me. and then later, i'll end up alone with out even realizing it till the last minute. alone with my cats. i've got so much dreams. i need them all fulfilled. i feel like im the only one who can give that to myself. i feel like with me, there is no "forever" because i can never be sure. oh, and today, i remembered you. just now actually. i'm so sorry. you used to be my best buddy, bet you never thought that i'd mature and replace you with an replica. or should i say immature. you're the only j that should be put on a pedestal. 'nuff said. hope you and lynne are doing wonders. talk to me someday. ring me someday. i feel selfish when i fear. my phobias are so self-induced. back to the sick and queasy: something has changed. it terrifies the shit out of me. everything was so dependable, blah blah blah.. but then out of no where you get this big evolution of neoterism. except, no innovation here -- more like disconnection. oh, there you go again. as i right this entry, there you go again. in the back of my mind. making me sick and queasy. can you just let me go?
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boyfriend kleptomaniac	Jun 19th, 2008 5:07 pm - Subscribe
So likeeee i know these people that live around here in good old toronto WHO ARE SICKENING they're even worse then the thornhill kids who were all like "YA LOOK@ ME IN MY NEON BOXERS". these kids are sickening, spoiled little bitches. plus, clubbing is shit.
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FUCK FISH	Jun 15th, 2008 3:21 pm - Subscribe
happy fathers day. i bought chocolate for my dad lol on another note, yesterday, at yorkdale i bought a friend a going away present from m.a.c. 20 bucks for a small container of teal eyeshadow? holy shit, should i have done that? and then she started reminding me (not on purpose, i hope) of what a loser i am at our private school, (i probably started feeling this way because i realized the allure of drinking, getting high, and being shitfaced in general had come and gone for me) but then i remembered i had someone. someone she didn't have. it all became easy. (P.S. i think my vegan self is going to have to start eating salmon again )
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yay	Jun 10th, 2008 9:36 pm - Subscribe
so, exams are finished. fdsjghkh; thought they'd never end, and so here we are, cruising bloor st and going all-out with my daddy's credit card. yeah, sure. lols so we're going to mexico again soon, so i did a bit of preperation-shopping on the internet. + some mineral-based organic SPF 15 makeup. but yeah, a Rachel Pally piece you can wear in the pool? Perfect. I'm lucky, snagged the last small.
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Let em wear couture	Jun 7th, 2008 3:59 pm - Subscribe
yay! i totally passed all my exams with flying colours. i also made tiramisu and muffins today. :3 oh and i spent $250 at Trapeeze the other day, and i ran into someone i knew with his mom, lolz
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they never felt the sting	May 28th, 2008 10:32 pm - Subscribe
so i'm in a great mood today i realized that one of my close friends, is amazing. she's not like anyone else i've ever met. she's not insecure, or fake. she's not condesending or anything like that. she's super nice and smart and caring. i just wish more people were like her, then the world would be a way better place. all of these other girls are fake. exams suck. i've been studying like 6 hours a day for the past week and i've feel like i've gotten nothing done. theres still so much to cover. but then again, they are always easier then i make them out to be. June 5th is my first one, its about 2 and a half hours long. i baked some super blueberry muffins the other day. they went quick. ... er, but there is still one thing that makes me feel sort of crabby.. i forgot to blog about it, but he totally came clean to during formal. he DOES think i'm full of shit. i kind of agree with him though. i was pretty messed up with him. but anyway, now that i see him, it just sort of hurts. BUT, that good friend i was talking about earlier? she totally helps with the pain. time to go study for exams!
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fuck offfffff	May 17th, 2008 3:54 pm - Subscribe
I'm not anorexic I don't have an eating disorder. Food is my friend. oh my god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i finished baking my 5 layer cheescake its beautiful i used the new mixer and the new springform pans i bought a week ago :3 irene is going to be so happy! its her 50th birthday cake, for tomorrow, duh.
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careful	May 14th, 2008 7:49 pm - Subscribe
I'm down about... 3 or 4 kgs.. I can't tell. I'm at 45.3 kgs. I feel like a waste of human. I tried calculating the pounds and its around 100. It's uneasy. I feel like the biggest asshole in the world right now because I didn't go to the airport. Not that you'd care. Your hair was wild around your face and your thumbs were pressed up close against each other in front of your lips where they held the top of the acorn. "Like this," you said, but you were laughing too hard; you couldn't show me how you made those little wedges with your thumbs on the wooden cap and blew through your knuckles to make an unholy whistle. You had been wearing those brand new Chuck Taylors, but you didn't mind walking through the woods. I remember that the wet leaves wrapped around your ankles like leeches and I am pretty sure that a bramble nicked your shirt, leaving a hole the size of a dime. I was hopelessly bad at whistling through an acorn top; you kept at it for hours, holding your hands over mine and telling me to get another damn acorn when the first cap shattered under the pressure of my clumsy little thumbs. Do you know how you love people more on certain days? It wasn't the way that your hair looked while it was falling in your eyes, or the feeling of your hands locked around mine, willing them to move a certain way. It was because on that day, at least, you didn't give up.
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ana	May 9th, 2008 8:37 pm - Subscribe
i have no waist measuring ability AT ALL!!!! how am i supposedly an hourglass if my waist is 0.75 ratio to my hips! BLASPHEMY i'm at.... about...... 800 cals today after my last binge im going to go throw out like 90% of the chocolate in the house
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always p.2	May 8th, 2008 9:35 pm - Subscribe
so i'm planning to become the person he wanted me to be. the person who i wanted me to be. inside and out. is 107 pounds too fat for a 5'1 and a half girl? my boobs are like, 7 pounds each though. so i'm confused. also, i'm getting abs soon. lolz
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aberzombies	Jul 2nd, 2008 1:27 am - Subscribe
remember when street to nowhere toured with the format? yeah
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sensational	Jun 29th, 2008 4:21 pm - Subscribe
The kitchen is subjective, therefor, I can be right and you can be wrong.
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i AM a jerk	Jun 25th, 2008 5:50 pm - Subscribe
I would give up my first born to have this bag. Here.
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tomorrow	Jun 23rd, 2008 11:12 pm - Subscribe
oh and one more thing you've totally ruined pride week for me. totally ruined my fun-filled summer. i'm dreading tomorrow.
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i love you	Jun 10th, 2008 10:42 pm - Subscribe
i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry i'm so fucking selfish and full of zeal. i love you, you helped me with my vices i love you i wish i was her
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nietzsche and ... pie	May 28th, 2008 10:49 pm - Subscribe
Lol I'm totally going to get at least a 97 on my lit . nietzsche is like pie.
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trust me i lie	May 17th, 2008 4:06 pm - Subscribe
my kitchen is the new nightmare sound
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Memory	May 17th, 2008 4:00 pm - Subscribe
oh btw im proud of being everything you're proud of not being. long fucking live obnoxiousness I'm trying not to think about before.
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