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Blue Sky Holiday
Date: 9th Dec 2006 7:58:18 AM - Subscribe
Mood: Overworked
Reading: Paulo Coelho - Veronika Decides to Die

I definitely need one.

My days are too long, while the nights are just way too short to have a decent amount of sleep.

Unfortunately, the heaven's as gloomy as me, full of grey clouds crying their eyes clouds curls (?) out; which sucks bigtime cos that means biking in the rain for me. >o<

The body must overcome fatigue. I musn't cannot get sick. Been working for 3 weeks straight with no yasumi. I'm not complaining. Working myself to death helps in ignoring the thoughts in my head, and it makes me richer - bit by bit by bit.

*You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Was watching FNS 2006 the other night. Daniel Powter sang "Bad Day"*. Most of my fave J-singers were there. Soo much fun. ^_^ AI's performance was brill as per usual. But Ayaka simply blew me away. 三日月 is the bestest song in the whole wide world.

Back to square one. >> To the Man on the Moon:
You're always there for me, yet you're always far from my reach.
The night blue sky gives me so much happiness and utter joy...
The night blue sky brings me unparalleled loneliness... indescribable sorrow... ingrained pain...
The night blue sky, is welcoming dawn's bliss.

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Date: 22nd Nov 2006 5:38:16 AM - Subscribe
Mood: Poofed!
Reading: Arundhati Roy - The God of Small Things

I've no energy left. It's weird that I feel soo tired and sleepy when today was just a normal day. Humdrum existence.

Got thousands of thoughts racing in my hyped-up brain but the body is definitely weak. Dinner was fun. I need to sleep.

Charge Battery << That's what my droopy eyes are saying.

Be back tomorrow for a reading-worthy post. Also, all comments on other people's blog will be on hold till next log-in.

Oyasuminasai.

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See no evil. Hear no evil. Speak no evil.
Date: 18th Nov 2006 8:59:27 PM - Subscribe
Mood: Hollow
Reading: Arundhati Roy - The God of Small Things

Didn't go to work yesterday. Didn't think that I had the strength to go an entire day pretending that everything was freaking alright. I'm wavering. I'm faltering. *sob* Not sure anymore if I'll make it.
Staying in the house meant an inevitable run-in with the LV-wearing devil my mom. But it was too dang cold outside that I was willing to take the risk -- take the risk of being triggered as tron puts it.
It happened around lunchtime when I came down for a bite and a bath. God! My entire being hates her guts. I slapped her -- in my reality alone. But violence never solved anything. So I went back to my room and cried. She doesn't get it. She'll never understand. I hate her, and everything about her, so much that I can't even stand looking at her. Aaaarrgghh! I don't want to feel this way; but sadly, it won't go away. Probably never will.

One of these days I'm just gonna stop talking altogether and it won't make any difference. That's cos I've been practicing monosyllabic conversations with everyone around me.
The most engaging convo I've had this week was with my 2-year-old niece. I was drinking coffee and she wanted some, but I told her that it was still scalding hot, so she blew on it and asked me to do the same thing, then she had her coffee. Very engaging eh?

I called my parents last Sunday and told them how the LV-wearing devil has been wreaking havoc in my already fucked up life. Didn't want to worry them. I just wanted them to know that I am in hell whenever I'm here. So if anything major ever happens they won't be that surprised and clueless.
Haven't heard from them since though. Does it take an enormous amount of effort to check up on your only daughter? I don't think so! But I don't want to call cause I won't have any good news. No progress. I'm still stuck in hell. There's only one escape but... and every single day that passes takes me nearer to the light at the end of the tunnel.

I'm sorry. Forgive me. I love you. Move on.

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AxA
Date: 16th Nov 2006 6:42:57 AM - Subscribe
Mood: Animated
Reading: William Faulkner - The Sound and the Fury *still on page 20 after a week -- I need a new book*

Hi, my name is driftwood and I... *um* am an addict.
It began a couple months back, but it's worsen ever since November arrived.
A day won't pass that I don't think about it.
I've tried and had others that were more popular -- but AEONITY has a different effect on me.
It leaves me wanting for more and keeps me coming back for more.
I need help.

LOL

*randomness*

Floating.
Date: 15th Nov 2006 4:55:36 AM - Subscribe
Mood: Tired
Reading: William Faulkner - The Sound and the Fury

I got home from work about an hour ago and I'm still feeling tired. Work wasn't tiring, though it will be starting tomorrow. The holidays are almost near and there's just so many gifts to wrap.
Everyone was buzzing and cheery. Not my mood lately. The place seemed like a bee hive. Blah.
Don't get me wrong. I love like my work and co-workers. Ryu-chang was soo funny: "Sorry. Didn't hear you. I was in my own world for a moment." Wasn't aware that the Japanese had that much sense of humor.
My only complain is that it's mind-numbing. I guess it's not enough that my heart is already numb. I can't feel my hands anymore and it's not even winter yet.

I'm sick and tired of thinking and whining about him. I mean seriously -- I've just had about enough of Jason-related thoughts for today, but they just won't quit. I'm going crazy. Don't worry Ryu-chang, you're not alone. I was also in my own world the entire day, walking the land of broken dreams, looking for my broken heart. >.<

STOP!

I'm going out a little later with the family. KARAOKE!!! I love it!! This may just be the break I desperately need. Cos all work and no play makes me a dull-er girl.

There's nothing else to write about. I'm just a broken record. Floating. Here. There. Nowhere.

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