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Pain
Date: Dec 25th, 2006 10:56:32 pm - Subscribe
Mood: deserted
Currently Listening To: I'm With You / Avril Lavinge

I’m sick of crying
Tired of trying
Yeah I’m smiling
But deep inside I’m dieing…

Your heart is as black as your words
Cutting me deep…
Deeper than any blade

Maybe someday you’ll see
Just how bad you hurt me
Maybe you’ll see
The blood I’ve shed
The tears I’ve cried
All the times you’ve lied

Your words are painful
They cut me deep
And I sit here and weep

The tears stream silently down my cheeks
As I tremble
Trying soo hard to stay away
As I clasp the cold
Blood stained blade
I say to myself
Only one more time

Using pressure
Pressing it in deep
Watching the blood trickle down my wrist

Thinking this is the only way
I have to escape my pain

Giggling as I watch it drip
The pitter patter of it hitting the floor
The pounding fist at my door

Sitting in my dark corner
Thinking If you only knew
About this hell you put me through

Sitting in the shadows
Blade in hand
Goose bumps on my arm
Thinking about how much I love self harm
The chill running up and down my spine
The sound of my own screaming numbing my mind

But don’t worry
I’m just silently dieing inside
I’ll be fine
As you have said so many times

By: Mallory Dawson ( me )
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I wrote this peom last night about my parents....but let me know what ya'll think...

All my love,
Mallie aka Fallen Angel

P.s. I wish ya'll a very mery Christmas and a drunken New Year!! lol

Comments: (6)

kikkai - December 26th, 2006 I liked that one, and I like this one too!

galyne - December 26th, 2006 Wonderful poem! I thought it was great! Keep up the poem work! ^^

anonymous - January 01st, 2007 Mallie AKA Fallen Angel... You are like twelve years old. Why is it that you think that you can write about love and shit, and how no understands why you like to cut? This is ridiculous. You're still a fucking kid. Let yourself be one. This is lame.

anonymous - January 02nd, 2007 she has pain. she's letting out. why are you judging someone you know nothing about? yeah she maybe a kid but kids have pain. you need to shove it, or support it. and if she does cut, writing is a good way to avoid cutting or thinking about thing for a little while. peace.

anonymous - January 02nd, 2007 I guess I can't get beyond the terrible grammar, but I imagine that is to be expected, what with the age. I'm afraid I'm with anonymous #1. It's almost as if you're trying to be emo. Just be yourself, it will seem less forced and more genuine.

north - January 04th, 2007 and I'm sure she will grow as time goes on, as we all do - whether or not some anonymous person online tells us to get over ourselves. why not let it take its course? if she's hurting and you disapprove, why put your two cents' worth in anyway? we all grow up in the end - or at least older.

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