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water sliding down my cheeks, i cant remember why. the pain is growing stonger with each drop on the kitchen floor. i m sitting there in the dark no one is home but me. i turn and face the window, and slide down on the icy ground. the sky is grey and sad. but its funny, i like it when it rains. but not now, the pain just doesn't go away. like it has in the past. its getting harder 2 breathe now i can bearly catch my breath the crash of thunder puts me in a sudden shock the room is filled with silence i m getting dizzy thank god i m sitting down my mind is really foggy and its starting to shut down. than slowly i drift off into a deep sleep only to wake up 10 minutes later when i hear the front door creek |
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it's nights like this when i don't want to hear solutions and my dreams just tease me with promises of a better tomorrow but i would think that tomorrow would have happen already you take it, and you take it and you learn, you learn all too well, so that later, when there's nobody to dish it out, you can punch yourself in the gut just because thats how its always been. the best part is, with training and practice, you learn your own soft spots and weaknesses, so that if some thing happened, you wouldn't be the one the gets hurt. double up over the pain and swallow it'll still be there tomorrow |
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i fined myself alone walking down a cold grey street when i see a girl in a soft blue dress her face is flushed and her hair is in knots her eyes are sad and look like they have been hiding something when she stairs right into my eyes it feels as though she looks right through me she looks as if she has been crying for a very long time i search in her eyes for the reason she drops something, to break my consentration and when i go to pick it up its gone i look at her and shes gone too i feel some thing around my neck its the locket she had dropped i suddenly know who she was and why she was so sad she was me |
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now there all gone and they are not coming back they all left me cause their on a different track i have no hope of anyone else i feel like a dope just please end it now because its to late in this game to find someone that was the same as everyone here that said goodbye they cant cheer me up now and you wonder why? |