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emokid just keep it in - Subscribe
i almost wanted to tell her today,
but than i kept it in.
i almost wanted to cry today,
but than i kept it in.

today i almost told the whole world
but i knew better, to keep it in.
i need to let it all out, some way,
but im just gonna keep it in.

sometimes i break down
and let it all out,
but than i don't tell, anyone else.
just to keep it in.

i have had it hard all my life
and i have always kept it in.
i feel like it makes me look so strong,
but now the ones i told wanna say,

that im not as storng, so they prey,
that i let it all out
and find some help today,
but i tell them to stay out of my life!

and now that some
of its out there.
it's just more reasons
to keep, keep it in.
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Mood: out of control

emokid finally lost it Dec 18th, 2005 7:33:54 pm - Subscribe
when i woke up,
something inside me was
screaming...
i try to calm it down
and stop the sounds
but nothing will do it for me.

and i cant explain why this happens
and i cant make it stop.
it just keeps coming harder faster stronger
and it is forcing me, to just give up!
now i've tried to give in
so many times before
but i could never go through with it
because of the people near my heart
and now im sure
that i have finally lost it!

i feel helpless.
i feel weak.
too many people are riding on me!
i got to be strong.
but its hard to think.
can they get threw it when i sink?

and i cant explain why this is happens
and i cant make it stop.
it just keeps coming harder faster stronger
and it is forcing me, to just give up!
now i've tried to give in
so many times before
but i could never go through with it
because of the people near my heart
and now im sure
that i have finally lost it!

the pressure of them is haunting me
i just want to run away and be free
but they have tied me down with resopsiblity.
to many short cuts,
i had to take,
but now i can see thats forced me to brake.

and i cant explain why this is happens
and i cant make it stop.
it just keeps coming harder faster stronger
and it is forcing me, to just give up!
now i've tried to give in
so many times before
but i could never go through with it
because of the people near my heart
and now im sure
that i have finally lost it!
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Mood: pretending im strong but inside im falling apart

emokid Seize the day Dec 19th, 2005 9:06:34 pm - Subscribe
Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.

And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine.

but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.

"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.

Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today.
And that's what we get
and deserve in the end.

Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.

Reach out and tell someone
what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that
it is the right time

it might be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.
And most importantly,
stay close to your friends

and family, for they have helped
make you the person that you are today.
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Mood: i waited to long and now its to late

emokid memories of time Dec 31st, 2005 10:55:03 am - Subscribe
when you're young,
time usually goes by
at a snails pace.
everyday lasts forever, and
every moment you wait
takes a life time to pass.

now, that i am
grown up, there's never
enough time. days are
short and hours happen
in a heartbeat. special moments
don't last as long as they used too.

but the memories you
make int he time that
is lost, stay with you always.
the pain, the joy, and the sorrow,
they'll never go away.
not until the day time runs out.
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Mood: bothered