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emokid falling apart - Subscribe
she fools all of her friends
into thinking shes so strong,
but she still sleeps with the light on
and she acts like its all right
as she smiles agian,
even though she knows
her mother is sick
and her friends wouldn't understand
shes a question without any answers,
who feels like falling apart,
she doesn't know,
shes so much more then worthless,
she needs to find the surface,
she wonders what she did to deserve this, and shes calling out to you,
cause every time she falls down,
she reaches out to you,
and shes loosing all controle
and she trys to fight the pian of it all.
cause thats her biggest fear,
and she always crying on the inside,
cause she doesn't want anyone to know
whats really going on.
but i dont wanna hide her anymore,
her life is trash and
she needs someone that can understand.
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Mood: looking for help

emokid the perfect girl Jul 23rd, 2005 3:33:49 am - Subscribe
the perfect girl
the one that never felt pain
the one who always smiled
even when her heart was strained

nothing could get her down
no one could make her cry
for she was the perfect girl
living the perfect lie

at night she cried silently
no one suspected a thing
the smile hid all the tears
the laugh covered up the pain

she didnt think her friends
liked her for who she was
so she put on a show
even though she still felt useless

her friends never came over
to see her small home
she said her parents worked alot
and they couldnt be there alone

the girls life was anything but great
her brother threaten to kill them
her dad was never there
and her mother always drank

her mother called her fat
until she thought the same
she started skipping meals
and her friends started to take shame

she never did drugs
or cut herself
but she still felt the judging eye
from all around

maybe the perfect girl always smiled
but inside she was fading away
crying herself to sleep every night
and putting on a mask every day.
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Mood: crying

emokid secrets Jul 23rd, 2005 3:35:56 am - Subscribe
never really fitting in she still tries to smile
crying tears and hiding secrets from all of them
behind her eyes they never could see the pain
but it was real and it felt like a bad dream

she tried to make friends and pretend she was fine
though she looked ok they were missing every sign
even when she smiled they could never see her eyes
filling with tears and hiding all of her twisted lies

every night when she went home she faced the pain
the only relief she could find was writing it all down
she came home to her drunk mother that would
tell her how horriable she was

and every morning when she went out she heard laughter
knowing that no one cared what would happen after
each day she was pushed around and hurt
her soul was bruised and her eyes full of tears

a life of pain and a life of torment she has to live
her "friends" thought she had a great life
but they never noticed how each day she was worse
they only saw her smile and only heard her laughter

but they never saw the pain behind her eyes
they saw her cry only in the rain
none of them knew what she went through
but its better that way
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Mood: hurt

emokid my angel Jul 23rd, 2005 3:36:52 am - Subscribe
i heard from my angel today
she is hurting inside and out
the reason she is this way
she needs some one, no doubt

she misses her old life
the way it used to be
her heartache seems to never end
to rescue her, ill be what i need to be

she is out of her element
and so lost, she feels
like just giving up
she can feel the strian to her heart

she always had a strong will
which will get her through this
i know you love her still
she can heal and find bliss

bruised as she may be
time heals all wounds
she needs you
so please come home soon
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Mood: needy

emokid my mother Jul 25th, 2005 10:31:51 pm - Subscribe
she lies to us and makes us cry.
she moves our things around and than
blames us when we cant find them.
she tells us we're worthless,
nothing at all to her,
and than the next morning
she says she loves us.
and every time it happens
i told her i loved her too.
but next time,
next time im going to tell her the truth
im tried of her hitting us
and making us look like the bad guys
making us feel sorry for her when
when we should be saying
thats what you get.
but i still cant find it in myself to be brave
and tell them, tell all of them.
and tell her,
that i hate her
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Mood: broken