emokid's Blog

finally lost it
Date: Dec 19th, 2005 1:33:54 am - Subscribe
Mood: pretending im strong but inside im falling apart


when i woke up,
something inside me was
screaming...
i try to calm it down
and stop the sounds
but nothing will do it for me.

and i cant explain why this happens
and i cant make it stop.
it just keeps coming harder faster stronger
and it is forcing me, to just give up!
now i've tried to give in
so many times before
but i could never go through with it
because of the people near my heart
and now im sure
that i have finally lost it!

i feel helpless.
i feel weak.
too many people are riding on me!
i got to be strong.
but its hard to think.
can they get threw it when i sink?

and i cant explain why this is happens
and i cant make it stop.
it just keeps coming harder faster stronger
and it is forcing me, to just give up!
now i've tried to give in
so many times before
but i could never go through with it
because of the people near my heart
and now im sure
that i have finally lost it!

the pressure of them is haunting me
i just want to run away and be free
but they have tied me down with resopsiblity.
to many short cuts,
i had to take,
but now i can see thats forced me to brake.

and i cant explain why this is happens
and i cant make it stop.
it just keeps coming harder faster stronger
and it is forcing me, to just give up!
now i've tried to give in
so many times before
but i could never go through with it
because of the people near my heart
and now im sure
that i have finally lost it!
Comments: (3)

paperdoll - December 19th, 2005 im sorry that s scary but likey

emogirlie - December 19th, 2005 did you make that up yourself because I think it's quite excellent. But please, if you are thinking of killing yourself, DONT. Trust me. Its worth it. You were put on this earth for a reason and you are meant to live. even if today is shit, there is always a better day ahead. keep going. keep fighting. better days will come. come talk to me if you want to cause i know how it feels to want to die.

lost_souls - December 19th, 2005 Wow. I like that a lot. Did you write it?

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