Some lyrics from the song. I'm so happy. Lalalalalalala.

Now I'm saying nothing in the future will feel like today.

More lyics. Ho hum. Its a happy happy day. Two people have commented on me and Simon's 'cuteness' in the last half hour. Oo!

Jem said she "saw him tday holdin ya!". Yay yay he holds me! I like that.

Emily x

I think I'm going to start putting up some of my poems. Right now I dont have alot but heres one I wrote today. So you can get the picture of today: Its the begining of yet another mini heat-wave. For the UK, this is like an oven. I had my first two End of Year exams today which, I guess, was alright, but not exactly nice. We got a mini swimming pool which, incedently, is nice. A poem.

A Silent Movie I Think

A silent movie
I think
Glossy and candy-hard
Lettered upon licence plates
Swinging on perfect breath
Neon wands
Wavering nasaua
Noir, jet, power, glitter
Simultaneous despair
Clawing glassy barricades with
The most perfect
Shiny cloud tips
Gothical screaming
Delicatly pressed upon soft pink lips

Try and work out for youself what it is about. Hope you like it.

Emily x

Check me. I havn't written in days but when somethig exciting happens, here I am! Lets see..

We went back to school on Thursday (half term you see. Its Saturday night right now). Simon was being so amazingly cute. He still hadn't kissed me but right then, I was happy. We were happy. Then on saturday night I was told, by countless people that he had cheated on me. With two other girls, at a party while I was in London. I was just so shocked. All they did was kiss but to me, considering the cirumstances, it was alot. I questioned him the next day and all he had to say was that he was sorry. No explanation at all. I feel so shit. Seriously. So humiliated because everyone knew. So stupid because he hadn't even admitted to it. So angry because he pulled other people over me. So upset because I really liked him, and beleived that he liked me too. I gave him another chance. We're still together. Was it worth it. Really? I just dont know. I like him so much. He makes me feel..safe.

Today I went out to town with Jem and Adi we had a laugh, it was great. Then we met up with Jem's friend Dave. Hes so funny. Hes really sweet. He thinks hes fat. Hes just a little tubby, not fat at all!! Seriously. We've been chatting online all night. Hes so great! He is two years older than me. I'm not into him like that. Hes just great. He sent me a track: James Blunt 'You're Beautiful'. I've got it on constant play. Its amazing. Lyrics for you:

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Emily x

I worked today and ended up leaning over a bottle of red wine. This resulted in a nipple-shaped red stain on my white shirt for the whole evening. My male boss pointed this out. Oh the hilarity!

Tonight is Katies party thing. I wasn't invited and felt so left out untill I found out that Chloe, Shell and Beth wern't invited either. Katie needs to figure out who her friends are seriously.

Town with Simon. Hm. Well we are actually getting on really well, chatting deeper into conversation now. He didn't kiss me. I'm actually surprisingly cool about this now. Although, this isn't showing the makings of a good relationship right now.

Adi. Good chat with him tonight. We're meeting up next weekend, ha hes a laugh. Hm.

Adi -> Haha, he drew on the horns etc. himself. Hes got dredlocks incase your wondering why he has weird hair..!




Emily x

See. Right there. A little song involving my favourite thing; Town. Si didn't come online (argh!) so I called him ('Be strong,' I told myself, 'Be a man'). Man, I'm in such a weird mood. If exuberant means what I think it does (and well..I suspect it does!) then that is exactly how I feel. We are meeting tomorow so thats cool (ha first time I have actually used a smiley on this!). Maybe first kisses are in store! Hody Humdy.

Emily x

Seriously. Weird heatwave. Almost died at school! My body can't take it! I can't remember how many pills I downed to get rid of my headache!

1) Simon. WHY? He might come to town tomorow. I'm not sure. Why hasnt he kissed me? I'm getting worried. Is he really that fridge? He is isn't he. Oh man. I really like him buut ah crap I do not know what to do!

2) Town! Woo shopping. Im getting my hair done at 9 then meetin everyone at about 10. Hmmm. Yay. But Jem doesn't want jade to come (she was expelled from our school..Jem doesn't like her..i do). Now I have to call Jade and tell her. Ooooh. To be truth I cant be bothered to meet her.

3)Big Brother starts again TONIGHT. I am a huge BB fan..you have no idea. Woo!!

4)London on Sunday! Yay for Oxford Street!. I'm in quite a good mood!!

5)I'm pretty bored.. brandnewcadillac@hotmail.co.uk add me! Ho hum.

Emily x (very entertaining to today! Sorry!)

Oh and crowsblood, I know what you mean about pain! I have cramps for days, results me to a crouching position often. Me, my mum and my sisters all get it bad. I sympathise with you so much!! Why us I ask you why?! If I wasn't an athiest 'Damn you God for making woman have periods..'