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I am holding myself together.
a breath of wind could
dissolve me
and scatter me in a heartbeat.

senses dulled by dancing lights,
I am a collection
of disjointed fragments.

please don't ask me any questions.
my voice
is not saying the same thing as my face,
and you're not looking
at me.

I am a basket case.
(put me in your basket
and take me away).

why are my tears
always so close to the surface now?
for you, I wear
my heart upon my sleeve.

feelings that slept drugged inside me
are awake now
and ready to spring without warning;
so keep watch -

several gears are loose:
I may break down at any moment.
travel at your own risk.

for you, I wear my heart
on my sleeve:
vulnerable and open.

through the rain and mist,
I see the sky.

I'm going back to
the pretty bright lights -

out and up and away.
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Mood: fragile.

end-of stars. Dec 15th, 2006 5:12:45 am - Subscribe
lying in a net
of someone else's
golden star lights,
I can't help but feel colder.

breathing on borrowed time.
every touch burns;
every word aches-
beautiful cherished pinpricks.

and while each embrace
is bittersweet,
the empty spaces
are cold with desire.

repentance for tears
and loneliness in anticipation
but I can't help it;
I want you.

a swarm of what-ifs
swim round like fish
darting to brush my skin
sending a shiver

in dreams I fight
I'll scream at the mirror
don't look at me that way
we'll make it - we have to.

every chord played
upon my heartstrings
sick with longing
oh, I need you

I can't help it;
I need you

hopelessly holding out
against time
we cannot give in
neither in spirit nor words

a small, voiceless thing,
bound by root to earth;
I grow towards your fire,
careless that I may burn.

I can't help it;
I want you.

in some star-mariner's net
we lie shivering
in the light
confused, but together

life's unending traffic circle
at once
proves and disproves
the theory of forever

and I am afraid
you'll go, and leave me
stone-blind again;
strike the lyrics from my lips.

and you are afraid
that if we should part,
I'll not
breathe again.

I will always
breathe for you -
I can't help it;
I love you,

and words
are too fragile
to tie down
to this living feeling.

I'll hold your light
and quell your fears;
I will be there when
the stars fall into the sea.

how can I help it?
I love you.
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Mood: impressed - look! it's MORE fish symbology!

end-of eve. Dec 25th, 2006 6:54:21 am - Subscribe
in the deep dark,
harmony rings -
it calls to me, oh,
calls to me.

let sleep rest heavy
upon dreaming eyelids,
and come to me now,
come to me.

the weary world drifts
away into
oceans of light
and colour.

and I dream;
in dreams I find
the thread of a song
unravelling again.

and ever the promise
of light beyond -
calling to me:
oh, come to me.
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Mood: content.
inspiration: merry christmas.

end-of time passes. Dec 31st, 2006 8:39:27 pm - Subscribe
upon the last day
frozen skies
and flat grey light

I reach back still
unwilling to lose my hold
on the days gone by
memories too dear
to let become simply that.

and still regrets
and fear for the unknown

what difference can I cause;
I that crawl but a corner
of this vast place?

the beautiful,
frightening thing
about time is
it passes.

the wonderful,
terrible thing
about life is
it ends.

and what have I
to prevent the ages
from sweeping me up
in their tides?

I have words -

I have words.
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Mood: wistful.
inspiration: 2007.