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end-of light - Subscribe
you see me
a confused, jumbled mess

I've tied
myself up in knots

chased my tail
until it was caught

and you look at me
with incredulity

why do I let
life get to me?

but all I want
is for you to

untangle me;
put me right again.

I run myself
into the ground

and fall to pieces
at a word

I drag you down
into my darkness

but all I want
is for you to see
the light I'm giving you.
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Mood: pathetic.

end-of awake. May 6th, 2007 2:44:34 pm - Subscribe
all these weeks
asleep beneath
a metre of the darkness
I wrap myself in.

I don't want to
dream through this,
and I won't
look away anymore.

all those days
convincing myself
that this is just
how I am -

it's not.
and I'm awake
to choose my own way
I won't let life happen to me.

awake
and alive;
with your voice
in my heart,

and sunlight
everywhere
that used to be
dark.
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Mood: :)

end-of impermanence. May 20th, 2007 5:07:18 am - Subscribe
I woke up to
the screaming of families;
I woke up feeling
my skin dissolve -

and I don't know where
my dreams run to;
in the light, where
all is revealed.

but it's real:
I looked on as
worlds were torn down
beneath fiery skies.

and all that I struggle for
can be lost in a moment
and all of my passion
could not save me.

there is no
reasoning with fate
or with a bullet,
or a blade.

any minute I could
wake up with
life collapsing upon me -
or nothing left at all.

so hold on to me.
hold me here; now -
one life or one love;
don't let it go.

I don't want to be alone.
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Mood: struggling.
inspiration: my difficulty coming to terms with my own mortality; with the impermanence of love and of life.

end-of penelope's requiem. May 24th, 2007 10:18:15 pm - Subscribe
lay down here,
don't argue so.
all defenses down
soft and slow.

through skylights
we forgot about,
the grey light shows.
and the sound
of the rain
and the sound
of the rain
goes on.

sweet distractions;
forget your plans.
lose yourself in
holding nothing back.

through skylights
we forgot about,
the grey light shows.
and the sound
of the rain
and the sound
of the rain
goes on.

fully captivated;
no desire to leave.
remain at my side
and forget all your dreams.

a shadow at home
awaits you;
you won't come -
tears will fall like rain.

through skylights
we forgot about,
the grey light shows.
and the sound
of the rain
and the sound
of the rain
goes on.

through windows
you left behind,
a cold wind shudders.
and the rain
in my heart
the rain
in my heart
goes on.
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Mood: lonely and bitter.
inspiration: Penelope was the wife of Odysseus. He left home for seven years and had all sorts of fun while she waited for him.