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end-of dying with you. - Subscribe
every night,
a part of me
dies
with you.

every time
in my dreams,
I see you
disappear.

heart pounds,
stomach twists,
head spins.

a human drum
tuned to the air,
I shudder.

behind closed eyes,
I watch
your demise
over and over.

you
could have been
me.

now
you're gone.

and gone
again,
every night -

I die
with you,

without knowing -

who were you?
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Mood: anguished.
inspiration: rest in peace.

end-of shifting. Oct 8th, 2007 12:15:51 am - Subscribe
so tired
and bitter
uprooted,
I wander
asleep on
my feet and
no place to
call home yet

hopelessly
homelessly
searching for
something here
not finding
whatever
I have been
looking for.

one place to
another,
still nowhere
to call home.
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Mood: worn out.
inspiration: pack up + leave.

end-of dreaming. Oct 13th, 2007 12:05:52 am - Subscribe
like a
black bear
in winter;

like an oak
at first frost;

like a
contented child,
warm and safe;

like tropical cities
at midday,
in the heat -

I sleep,

dreaming
deep.
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Mood: hibernating.

end-of she's my requiem. Oct 25th, 2007 12:16:15 am - Subscribe
there's a song
in winter's silence
a melody
that speaks of frost

there are lyrics,
in my empty mind;
a tune,
and she's the song -

she's my requiem
the sound of tears;
the silence of snowfall.
she's the pain we carry,
bittersweet -
we all keep smiling on.

numb as I am,
the music screams
this lullaby,
and she's the song

and she's my requiem
I mourn a girl
I thought I knew;
I mourn a heart
I've always loved.

I mourn the song to which
I've known the lyrics
but never caught
the tune.

she's a song,
and she's

my requiem.

I hear you,

passing on.
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Mood: missing my best friend.
inspiration: raidne, again.

end-of love this. Oct 27th, 2007 11:39:04 pm - Subscribe
I cannot hear,
I cannot breathe.

and everything's breaking
something's
got to give -

I'm not giving
anymore.

to what do I owe?

you say time?
well, times change.

and lives,
and loves
and stories end.

I cannot breathe,
you cannot hear

what the hell is wrong?
something's got to give,
and I'm not giving
anymore.

what's going to
get me through?

you say love?

well, love this.
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Mood: unlovable.