[today]Jan 17th, 2008 7:09:20 am - Subscribe

terrible
to find the truth
of my own glory
as it slips away

so painful
to find the saying true:
you don't know what
you've got 'til it's gone.

unbearable
to think of all that time
I wasted
in sorrow

when all along
I had you!

then what had I
to complain of?

I had you.

what tear brightened
my eye,
what bitterness
escaped my lips?

I had you.
I had you,
and I did not
fear your loss.

oh, child,
you learn too late
of the joy you held
even in your pain.

and a joy so close,
so constant, it seems,
that I took for granted
that you belonged with me.

even then,
with you behind me
I should have been stronger
should have rejoiced

for I had you -
what more need I?

and here at the dawn
of the darkest of times

unbearable,
to see that I
might have been happy -
I had you.

so terrible
to think of chances wasted
while I still had your heart
forever.

[I am]most unhappy.