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it's been...i forget how long, it doesn't really matter. what matters to me is tonite in and between bars, i realised that i still miss him...so bad. he's gone. just like that, he disappeared from me. never showd up again. i wonder where he is and what he's doing right at this moment. there are so many i wanna say to him. like how much i still love him and i would not be as bad a girlfriend as i used to be if he could just come back to me. but i lost him already i know that. why havent i said these stuffs earlier? why i acted like i didnt care? deep in my heart, i secretly wish he would give a chance to patch things up. i can't tell my fds about this. they all thought i recovered already but i haven't. i'm still in it not even slightly less. and after 3 parties last nite, it just got even worse. where are you right now? sorry i broke ur heart. would u come back and break mine? i screwed up, and i'm really sorry. can you forgive me for the last time? i promise i'll be good. no i'm not a workaholic, from now on, i'm not. my heart was bleeding when u said u thought work was the most important thing to me. it's really not. and i'm sorry if i didnt make it any obvious to you. i love you, from the bottom of my heart. and i cannot afford losing you. don't know that yet? you have to know, and you have to forgive me. i love you, million times. and have a good day, no matter where u are, just take good care of yourself, even if u will not come back, pls be happy. |
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i donno where u have been in the past week. but for somehow, i got the feeling that u were not in town. coz i couldnt breath you. and the city was just so empty that hurts. and now i guess ur back in town right? but u still dont wanna talk to me, do u? i wish this is only a punishment, but probablly it's not. probablly u just dont care any more. i know ur leaving sooner or later. but when? would u tell me b4 u go? pls let me know, pls. no u dont have to see me, just gimme a text or anything, let me know. P.S. i still love you today. |