Three. Wild. Pissed.
Date: Jun 10th, 2007 4:02:32 am - Subscribe
Mood: pissed off
Yesterday, I experienced most thrilling, forbidding, amusing and craziest night in my entire life. Not every emotion was felt but it was close to that. I never thought that I’d be in a situation like that. I guess there really is a first time for everything. I never want that to happen again, ever! Nevertheless, it was fun. Haha!
You see, I was supposed to go to this SPBG party. But then, for some reason, the party was postponed. Since, I was already allowed to stay out until 12am, I just did. I was with my boyfriend the whole night. First, we stayed at his place, watched television, cuddled and ate burgers until 8pm. After that, we went to SM to go window shopping.
Soon, the mall was about to close so we had to change venue. We went to our village’s plaza, and into this computer shop that he usually goes to. Joshua, a friend, was there. I talked to him a little bit about his girl, hehe. Still no hope for him, poor boy. Anyway, we stayed for a bit, used the computer, and waited for some of our friends, Jed and Carl, to come by. When they got there, with them was the rest of the ‘Netbyters’. The shop was now crowded. Makss introduced me to them, and since they’re so many, I couldn’t remember the names of half of them. Heck, I couldn’t even remember their faces.
As I’m writing this, there’s been an intrusion. And I’ll write first what I feel because I’m so fuckin’ angry…
-Start of Rave-
Fuck him! I hate him so bad. Fuck my little brother. That little twerp. That little shit! Grr…
I hate him so much! I just lost my temper on him. Fuck him! Magsama silang lahat, leche! Nakakairita talaga… I wasn’t doing anything, and nagsumbong siya na I fuckin’ kicked him! What the hell?! Over lunch! Andami daming tao, pano ko sya sisipain?! He already used my card, ate my chips, and makes kwento to everyone false shit about me and my guys. And did I say anything?! Did I?! Shit! I hate him so bad. Syempre sakanila siya maniniwala, dahil he is the sweetest one daw. Hell no! He’s the fuckin devil in disguise. That shit. Grrr!!! Kanina pa, kanina pa talaga ako napupuno. Nagtitimpi lang ako. Tangina talaga… Wala akong ginagawa sa kanya ah. Leche siya. Leche talaga. Magsama silang lahat. Fine, me against them. I don’t care. Fuck ‘em!
‘Pag natyempuhan ko lang talaga siya. Lagot siya sakin. I’m going to scare him so bad that he’ll pee on his pants. Pero siyempre, magsusumbong na naman siya. At eto namang nanay ko, syempre kakampihan siya. As if naman! Why does she hate me so much? Lahat nalang ng galit niya sakin niya binubuhos. Kahit wala na akong ginagawa, ako parin nakikita. Maliit na bagay, pinapalaki. Bakit hindi yung mga lalaki kong kapatid yung pagbuhusan niya ng galit? Tss… I’m trying to be sweet and nice to them, pero what do I get in return, ha? Wala! Isang malaking sermon, or sigaw, or… Ah ewan! Nakakinis. Nakakirita. Shit.
-End of Rave-
Moving on, at around 9.30pm, we left the shop and back to his place. Argh! I can’t concentrate. I’m not in the mood to write anymore. Anyway, we drank. Not water, stupid. And I got drunk. Thankfully, I still got home.
If you’re asking what happened between the drinking session until I got home, figure that one out yourself. I’m not in the mood to continue writing.
P.S. No Nathan, I didn't fuck him,, Perv! Haha! Just kidding =P
Two. The short story of us.
Date: Jun 8th, 2007 6:50:38 am - Subscribe
Mood: shy
Warning: I wrote this around 4AM in the morning as I couldn't sleep and the sentences just keep on going on and on in my head. I just had to write it down to forget about it and be able to sleep. Its kinda cheezy. And hell, I'm in love so no trashy comments or anything, haha! Please, spare me.
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We weren’t really close before this year came. Heck, we’re not even close to being close. We just thought of each other as mere batch mates. He saw me as this pretty, kinda naughty and most especially suplada girl. And I saw him as this bad, loud and naughty boy who didn’t really gave a shit about his life.
We both didn’t expect to be acquainted at all. But once the year 2007 came, we did. We became friends because of the silliest, craziest and most unromantic reason. That reason is for us to keep and for you to find out. Anyway, because of that we just got closer. Our “friendship” had been a roller coaster ride in the shortest period of time. It was just plain crazy.
Everybody else thought that something was going on between us because before we were just plain strangers to each other then in an instant, we became total friends. I thought it was just impossible because I had a boyfriend at that time and there was this girl that he really liked, probably loved. There really isn’t anything going on, I thought to myself. But they were probably right.
We enjoyed each other’s company and hung out more and more. He was there for me as I was there for him. Based on experience, I knew that something was bound to happen sooner or later because we were just too close. So I remember telling him, “Don’t fall in love with me, okay?” Just in case. He agreed and I was relieved. Something was just wrong. We had other people yet we have each other.
For me, it was just too confusing. I don’t know what’s going on in his mind because I can’t really read thoughts, y’know. So I pretended to not mind. Just go with the flow was my safest strategy. Besides, I don’t even know what we were and what I felt about him. But one thing’s for sure is that we weren’t just friends anymore. Or was it just me?
It was all happening too quickly that it was almost impossible to figure stuff out. Making quick decisions and all, but we managed. Soon, everything became clear. There really is something.
People got hurt along the way and we are deeply sorry for that. I guess we’re just not the ones for those people. But there is a positive side to all of this. Here we are now, together, happy and strong. For me, he’s almost perfect. A dash of everything: good and bad; naughty and nice. I’ve never been happier and contented with someone. I do hope that the magic… Oh what the hell, that’s too corny. I just do hope that we will last.
P.S. Remember when I said that I thought that he doesn’t give a shit about his life? Well, he does now. He’s changed a lot since we’ve been together and I’m so happy and proud of him.
I love you so much hon! X¤
One. The not so first entry.
Date: Jun 7th, 2007 8:45:46 am - Subscribe
Mood: beautiful
First entries are the hardest ones to write. I don't usually know what to write in it. Should it be an introduction about me? Or should it be just like any other entry? Just a normal day. Anyway, what ever I may write in this first entry would be totally random. I'll let my hands do the talking.
Hmmm,, I might write a thing or two about me. Well, what the heck, I'll write everything about me that comes to mind.
Drama is not my thing. But that's just what I say. I usually overreact over small things, but not really. Confusing? I know.
I'm mean. I'm bad. I'm a bitch. I am nice to nice people. But once you've done something wrong to me, prepare. In my mind, you'd be killed in different ways. But only I will know about that. If I do talk about you, I will only say the meanest but true things about you.
On the other hand, I'm a great friend. Period.
I am an internet whore. But only if I have an internet card. We don't have DSL, Broadband or any of those internet shit. What we have is dial-up, and I'm fine with that. But it wouldn't hurt to have more.
My family is what I cherish the most. They never fail to make me laugh even though right now, most of their jokes are about me and my guys. Haha! Well, I'm used to it anyway. Their favorite thing to tell me: don't marry early, study, no sex. Haha!
My best friends are the best. They're so funny too. Since we're all incoming freshmen, we won't be seeing much of each other anymore, huhu. But whenever we do have the time for a hangout, all four of us would have a blast. Endless stories and uber weird, unexplainable but nevertheless funny moments. My tummy is bound to hurt whenever I'm with them.
My boyfriend is just the sweetest. I'm loving everything about him. He makes me laugh, surprises me, takes care of me, makes me feel good, basta, he's just the best. Compared to my ex-s, he's a bit of everything. He was a very bad and naughty boy. Take note: was. Now he's just bad, but still naughty. And I like that, hihi.
So far, I have a great life. I've got a loving family, irreplaceable friends and an uber sexy boyfriend, haha!