Don't worry, it'll be our little secret...

Feb 17th, 2005 9:42:07 pm - Subscribe
Mood: psyched

Yet again, life, work and general strife haave come between myself and my blog. I apoligise. Anyway update since last time, Dirk has gone and got himself a boyfriend, which is nice. I myself nearly found love once again in the love of a girl called Madison, sadly she found out Maria had gotten pregant and felt she couldn't trust me, hence the title. Sometimes I wonder why my life is this series of challenges, my own personal mountain every few days. Perhaps I should just jack everything in, move far away and hope the ocean which is life takes me to a better climate...

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Confusion...

Jan 26th, 2005 9:32:58 pm - Subscribe
Mood: confuzzled

As said before my friend Dirk has been a real plus these past few weeks but today he confused me, he went and kissed me. It's so confusing, I've never thought I was gay, but h's inspire feelings deep inside me for him. However if I came out gay my Dad would probably throw me out, he's a total homphobe and deeply distrustful of Dirk, who he thinks is trying to take advantage of me? Sometimes I ask myself 'Why?'

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Recap...

Jan 22nd, 2005 12:03:32 am - Subscribe
Mood: withdrawn

Sorry I haven't blogged in a month, I've been busy trying to get my life back together, fortunatley my friend Dirk has been there all the way for me. I can't understand why people hate gays like Dirk, he's looked after me and shown me more affection this past month than anyone.
Anyway it would appear my ex is pregnant...I have a horrible feelings the child is fine, shes 8 weeks gone, it could be mine, Im so worried, I will hate myself if it is...another 7 months til I know if I've destroyed two lives. Im really worried

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Bullied

Dec 21st, 2004 6:30:34 pm - Subscribe
Mood: pissed off

So my best friend Dev has been mocking me for being emo. I hate it why cant people just accept me for what I am? I just don't feel christmassy at all, why has all this shit happened? Why? Good will on earth, I don't think so.

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'Thing's can only get better...'

Dec 17th, 2004 11:27:15 pm - Subscribe
Mood: tortured

Well whoever sung that song was talking utter crap, turns out Maria has been seeing someone else behind my back, I feel so hurt, so betrayed. I just don't wanna look out into the world anymore. All I see is an oppulent sphere of darkness where the common man is chewed up and spat out. I feel so alone. Oh well I have two tickets to go to Paris I won't be needing I guess. Why?

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