Lone Wolf
Date: Maypm06 19, 2006 - Subscribe
Mood: lost and alone
Listening to: Getting Closer by Billy Joel
My Global teacher called me a lone wolf today. I'm not too sure what to make of it. All because I missed a test and he was wondering if I wanted to make it up in the library or the classroom. Since my class is chatty I decided the learning center. So he says to me, "You're really the lone wolf type aren't you?"
To which I replied, "I work better when I'm alone."
To tell the truth, I feel better working alone than in a group. In a group, I'm manipulated into doing all the work and presenting the work. No one else in the group will do the work. Just let that quiet, nice, smart girl do it all. We'll still get the good grade.
At least if I'm working by myself, the teachers can tell that I can produce high quality work. Whereas in a group, they just think that the whole group did the work, instead of one person.
I like being alone sometimes. I was in a bad mood today and wasn't very tolerant of anyone. I tried to stay away from people so I wouldn't blow up on them as I'm prone to do when I'm angry. Maybe it's hormones. God only knows.
Other days, what I would give for someone who understands me, someone I can actually talk to without feeling like I'm just complaining or talking to myself. Most days I feel like I need my soul mate to come up and hug me and give me a shoulder to cry on.
I don't think my soul mate exists. Or will ever exist.
"Oh, I'm sorry, I was zoning out, what was that?"
"I'm sorry, what? I didn't catch that."
"Sorry, spacing again."
"What did you say? I didn't quite catch that."
Even when I try and talk, to my parents, to my close friends, no one seems to hear me.
Maybe I am better off alone...
The lone wolf.
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