Curtains of Hair

Jun 7th, 2009 2:48:30 pm - Subscribe

So giving up has become a daily occurrence for me. No one should ever take me seriously. And if they do, I shouldn't take them seriously.

I want to start going to confession. I want to travel around the state to different Catholic churches, confessing all the things I have done. I want to tell each priest that I masturbated in the last confessional while listening to the nice man speak to me.

I want to discuss all the dirty things I have done and that have been done to me. I want to go into graphic detail about each sexual encounter. I want do describe my favorite positions and how each one brings me closer to God.

I want to actually masturbate in the confessional. I want to describe how wonderful it feels and I want him to join me. I want to hear him moaning in the booth next to me as I tell him all the different ways I like to touch myself.

It's difficult to write about something you've never experienced.

I will never have the courage to allow myself the ability to write about it.

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