Extended Status

Apr 17th, 2009 3:43:49 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Scared

Rachel Everett shakes her head, rolls her eyes and reluctantly follows you into this mess asking only for understanding for her bitterness and appreaciation for any trace of kindness. She wonders if she is making the right decision and if you'll just do it again. She wonders what she means to you and feels she is sacrificing every ounce of self respect to persue this. She has never done this before, please be patient when she cries and becomes an increasingly jealous person. You have to earn her trust again. Please be patient with her remarks. Understand that she has never lowered herself to anyone but is doing just that for you. She is putting all her trust in you and allowing you the opportunity to hurt her once again. She is uneasy but she wants it to work. She does not want to be the bitter one but notices the excessive slip ups. She helplessly attempts to salvage what has been destroyed. Confused because for once, this is not her fault. She was caught in the crossfire of something she will never understand. She is lost and scared. Deep down she fears this will not work out but wants it more than anything. She has put all of her energy into not killing you and is quite exhausted. She loves you and has not the slightest clue how to express it. She thought accepting this betrayal was enough but you expect a bit more. She will try. She will do anything she can but please understand that all she can do is likely not enough. She is unaware of what you are going through and what the future holds. She is ill. She is tired. She wishes she could just say goodbye.

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