Girl

Oct 27th, 2009 9:29:03 am - Subscribe
Mood: swanky

I imagine that nothing can be said or done to make his mistakes disappear. He says he's here now and that should be enough to prove that I'm important.

It could also just go to show what a coward he is.

Anything he says from now on will have no meaning. He told me he loved me and that he wanted to spend the rest of his life making up for all the pain he caused me. He said those things while waiting for the right time to dump me and pursue a real relationship with her.

He screwed it up with her and now he's stuck with me. So of course he's going to try and make this work, he has no better options.

Do I allow myself to be taken in by the flowers, treats, rocks, and cliches?

Of course not. This is me we're talking about.

I'll go about this until I find someone better. I'll listen to the words, pretending they are true long enough to get through another night. I'll pretend I'm not hurt by the months of lies. I'll fall into a peaceful slumber when he says he stays up late talking to god-knows-who online. I'll smile when he spouts off all the things that usually make girls feel loved.

I'll feel better when I replace him.

Until then I suppose I'll give him the picture perfect, reality-free relationship he once had online.

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