Half Assed Life

Feb 26th, 2009 7:57:49 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Lazy

I'm ok with mediocrity. I've always been a C student. Now I'm a C person. I noticed how little I do to get by. I don't worry about things anymore because nothing is the end of the world. I don't try because there aren't any visible consequences. I don't work for grades, relationships, money or even to better myself. I walk when I have to. Roll over when it will kill me not to.

I go about my life but rarely wake. I chuckle but do not laugh. I cry but do not sob. I smile but do not grin. I experience annoyance but never anger. I like but do not love.

I don't want to go above and beyond. I'm afraid of going out on a limb because I've fallen off the tree so many times. It seems silly to try again. I think I've learned my lesson.

Things don't seem worth it. They never really did. I only try when I'm manic, so when I fail it feels like my life is over.

I wish to sleep now.

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