Honesty Like I'm Leaving

Oct 10th, 2009 6:32:38 pm - Subscribe
Mood: troubled

Things can never be the same.
He can never make me feel the same as he had before.
My feelings were based on lies he told.
Simple words such as "I love you" escalated into delusions.
I made my plans around him.
I sacrificed so much to make it work.
He had little interest in me.
I believed there was so much more.
I believed I was the only special one.
How could I believe differently when he never told me differently.
He left me believing I was special.
Touching me shortly after expressing love for another.
I should accept that I have him now.
Instead I dwell on the past.
The past has made the present meaningless.
I will never know my value.

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