I need to run home.

Sep 11th, 2010 2:08:01 am - Subscribe
Mood: okay

It's upsetting that I smoke enough now that I can't tell if I'm high or not.
At least I forgot the pain that longs for my stomach.
My red eyes. The calm. My heavy, numb fingers whisper their secret to me.

"This isn't normal.
This isn't you coping."

Aust?
Hmm?
Sing Soft Kitty.
I don't know the words.
Goodnight.

No missed calls.
No messages.
Xu couldn't be less thrilled that I'm even alive.

Sympathy card from my parents.
Is this really my life?
Again?

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