Informed Judgement Deficiency

Jun 17th, 2009 9:50:50 am - Subscribe
Mood: Toxic

It kills me to see it happen to others. Poor, confused teenage girls, so upset with their lives that they're willing to run into the arms of anyone who will say the right things. Anyone who can make them feel free and loved. It doesn't take much when you're desperate. All it takes is a few comforting words, a compliment and a promise.

Repeat.

Every day feels like the end of the world when you're fifteen. Maybe that goes away with age because we're older and we're used to the pain, or perhaps it really was that bad back then and we just don't remember.

We're all too old to embrace our pain. We push it aside because that's what adults do. We can no longer punch mirrors because we know it will just leave wounds that are difficult to explain at work. We can't scream because it will wake the neighbors and they might call the cops. We don't cry because it will just wear us out and there are more important things that need to be done.

We no longer run to someone older who will make empty promises and say the sweet nothings to make us feel better.

We know better.

We learn to manage without, wishing, but knowing it will only hurt more when they let us down.

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