Kept Just Out of Reach

Jun 7th, 2008 6:05:28 am - Subscribe
Mood: infatuated
Currently Listening To: LTJ

Gas is supposed to skyrocket.

W/E.

Sooo melancholy.

Not apathetic.

I'm actually hurting today. How does Less than Jake sound so happy all the time?

Their songs are all so cheerful and fast but the lyrics are sad as hell. I guess that's why I like them so much. Nobody likes a morbid bastard. I always make fun of my state.

I try to anyway.

I can't help it if I just need to lay in bed for weeks on end, trying to sleep away the pain.

Drama Queen.

God, I wish Josh would sign on to MSN. It really blows not talking to him. I have to get up for an interview tomorrow and I don't even care. I just want to talk to him. This is the first time in days that I've had the internet. This is the only form of communication these days. Who uses the phone anymore?

I was mostly excited that I can watch porn again. I tried to masty but I got all grossed out. I'm pretty sure I'm a lesbian again.

Except for the whole being infatuated with Josh thing.

I'm waiting for him to come out of the closet or start dating some beautiful girl so I can begin the process of getting over him.

Lay in bed for weeks on end until someone significantly less fantastic comes along.

Or until I start going to parties and engage in casual sex again.

So much easier anyway.

Sick of feeling. Sick of liking him. Sick of relationships. SickSickSick.

I'm not going to be chipper tomorrow.

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