Me llamo Chita

Aug 25th, 2009 3:57:11 pm - Subscribe

Things are exactly how I wanted. So why am I unhappy?

I'm terrified he'll resent me years from now.

Yeah, it would be fantastic if he chose me over his child. We could be together and pretend this never happened. Heather would no longer be in the picture and I'll have him all to myself with few worries.

Until a few years pass and he starts to wonder what his child is like. Is it a boy or a girl?

I won't always be pretty. My hair will fade into a dull silver. My skin is already beginning to resemble the pile of laundry on my floor. I'll interrupt his games to discuss our feelings when he is only growing bored with me.

He'll wish he had just done the honorable thing. With me, he'll tack on a few more years of fun. He'd have so much more with her.

I could kill myself for all I've put him through.

I should have just taken my things and focused on my classes. I should have avoided this altogether. It's probably not too late.

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