To Never Fall in Love Again

Jun 29th, 2008 4:38:50 am - Subscribe
Mood: enigmatic

I went on a walk last night. Sometimes I think pain increases creativity. This is all I came up with:

I know this town,
my way around.
The one small cost;
I am still lost.
This is Hays.
It's just a phase.
Be leaving soon,
the next blue moon.

Yawn.

I was sitting on a bench outside of the newspaper place and I wrote "This is where I try to meet people" on one of the bricks. I'm such a deep badass.

I deactivated my facebook account. I'm not even sure why. I guess I just want attention. I hung out with Jeremy today. He was wearing a cute sweater I picked out. I tried really hard to want him back but it didn't work. I'm getting over Josh.

This process is a pain in the ass. This happens a lot. He hit the worst. I saw where this was going. Logic and emotion weren't in agreement, though. He made my life topsy turvey. I got that term from Willy's Silly Glasses. GREAT BOOK. It's pretty much about my life.

I've never loved anyone the way I love Rivers Cuomo.

Work sucked today. I had 18 rooms as opposed to my usualy 11 or 12. I'm really sore. I made $320 this paycheck. Just enough to cover rent. I was so excited.

It's sad, really.

I work so I can make money to live in house. I make just enough to get by. Life is work. Work is life.

"My American dream is to have it a little bit better than my parents ever had it."

No such luck.

Poor me.

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