The Next To Be With You

Jun 18th, 2008 5:24:52 am - Subscribe
Mood: done

Tonight was the first night in a long time that I've felt happy.

Lucas, Shannon, Jonny, Megan and I all sat on the back porch watching a fire and listening to music on Shannon's iDog or whatever. Shannon brought out sparklers for us all to play with. Jonny was pretending to be an air traffic director and Shannon was the plane.

Their being couples didn't even phase me. It didn't matter that I was singled out. It felt great to be around neat people, throwing back beers, smoking cigarettes, listening to crappy music. Laughing.

For once I didn't feel alone. I just kept stopping to think how great tonight turned out to be.

I saw a shooting star and wished for Josh.

I got on facebook just now and it has him freshly listed as "in a relationship."

My stomach is going nuts.

I give up.

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