evies Aeonity Blog

Self Esteem

Mon, 23 Jan 2012 10:53:27 -0600

I will not allow the hot chicks at the adjacent table to deter me from eating. I am hungry. I have been eating rice for weeks. I deserve a complete meal. I deserve protein. I do not care if they look at me. I do not care if they watch me. If they judge me, they have problems. They are just attractive girls. Everyone eats.... Read More

Shh

Tue, 13 Sep 2011 21:14:58 -0500

Sometimes I just wish Chelsea would just come back and shake things up with her monkey banana raffle and a bag of oranges. When did everything get so quiet all of the sudden?... Read More

Ambien and Klonopin

Sun, 05 Jun 2011 20:48:45 -0500

Over the past few days, it has become even more clear than before how much easier it is to remain in a bad relationship than open up to someone new. I have discovered how many things I can no longer accomplish. Quitting smoking so I can run that much faster from anyone who could possibly mean something to me. I should spare myself the ph... Read More

Fail

Tue, 17 May 2011 22:29:06 -0500

I had a mental breakdown in front of my parents. My mom wouldn't let me vomit in peace. Her advice was completely useless and unnecessary. Failing in front of them. It feels like my lungs are wrapped in rubber bands. Dying for a cigarette. Dying to be home. They have witnessed what I deal with. They watched the hell I put myself through to... Read More

Liberation

Sun, 15 May 2011 10:33:33 -0500

No longer incarcerated by his feigned compassion. His actions have always made little sense but questioning only leaves me with the appearance of insanity. The unfortunate but inevitable process of over-analyzing his behavior has reached its end. My expectations of flawless logic drove me mad, constantly disappointed by irrationality and unnecessar... Read More

Shan/Lord

Thu, 12 May 2011 22:12:24 -0500

I will do this for you, in every way that I know how. I will thumb through the beads and beg beneath the stars. I will recite the words programmed into the big brain that also prevents me from believing. I cried for you and your loss. Deep down I wish that Baby K is an angel, floating around the universe, watching down on me with the paradoxical co... Read More

Catnip Tea

Mon, 09 May 2011 22:38:58 -0500

My papers are almost finished. The entire semester of panic was completely unnecessary. I'm ready for a summer of new beginnings. A new location, new friends, new job, reading, writing, and probably a lot of opium and minecraft. I've lost weight and intend to lose more. I've let another potential love slip through my fingertips but I'm ... Read More

Car Tassels

Mon, 02 May 2011 20:05:37 -0500

I never thought I'd say that I'm actually sick of people begging me for sex. I saw two dandelions wrapped around each other like they were hugging. It pisses me off that even the plants can find love. I want to become a better hipster but I refuse to purchase a romper. Perhaps I will start writing in comic sans for the sake of irony. P.S... Read More

Ready for Abduction

Fri, 29 Apr 2011 22:07:46 -0500

Today I was a delight to fuck. ... Read More

Grape God

Thu, 28 Apr 2011 21:07:19 -0500

I've exceeded my filth limit. The dishes and laundry are piled high enough to climb. The bathroom needs cleaned, the living room needs dusted and vacuumed. I need to start packing. Instead of taking care of myself and the house, I spent two days in strange beds, stoned. I haven't showered, I refuse to eat. My cough isn't getting better. I put my... Read More