stupid drama

Jul 20th, 2004 1:04:13 pm - Subscribe
Mood: hurty

i dont think i'll ever escape the drama. i just wish i could let go. i went out with this guy for like 11 months and it just didnt work out. we both had things that were important to us that we couldnt be there for each other. it was a stupid relationship and it only lasted bcuz we were afraid of being alone. but i still care about him and hes chosen this lifestyle for himself and it drives me crazy. hes an alcoholic and a pothead, and not in a good way. his mom's dying and she depends on me to take care of him. which isnt fair but i love them both so badly enough im willing to fullfill my god-given duty of making sure the poor kid turns out alright. its wearing me out and he wants nothing to do with me. its impossible to change him but i guess i just have to back off. there's not much else to do. i need to get back to my own life. Weezer time

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